Understanding opulence

An advantage built on disaster itself

I've come to terms with myself

Acting upon change

Reacting to the breathing of the earth

Thinking back

Relapse, collapse

I’m not burning down to ash

Pleasure in the eyes of this hindrance

Leave this, believe us

Burning down the ash

I must confess, endless bliss

Collusion’s burnt down in ash of us

Ponder me

Hold the thoughts

I want to become ash, I've become obsessed with this

Staring at the wall of flames

I know by now the past has called my name

Have I found a way to walk backwards without shame

Or is this what it feels like to hold onto nightmares

Or is this what it feels like to hold onto nightmares

(Holding onto to all my fears)

Not the kind of creature I thought I’d become

But I guess this isn’t a hardwood floor either

Looks like I’ll just succumb to the ether

Tell me more lies like this to help me bind my life for the keepers

Blistering conversation, the noise makes me feel pain

Like nails to a chalkboard, I’m repulsed by the thought of change

Addictive personalities around me

Begging me to be whole again

This time I promise I won’t let you go

Knowing everything around me will never be my home

Don’t leave me alone

I fear abandonment, the only love the world can show

Thrusting deep inside my mind

Vulgar visions offer time

I’m disgusted realized, operating with no disguise

Disrespectfully bastardized, my brother left me here to die

Gouge out my eyes

Walking around with intent in my head

Every single thing I write

Makes people think I crave death

Come follow me I’ll show you

That we can’t walk together without burying our filthy shame