Moonless II - Intellectual

I said it wouldn’t matter, now here I lie awake

Grabbing at straws while I feel my bed shake

Isn’t it funny who we become when we sleep

We’re always alone, forever empty and weak

Bring me to the shadows

Hollow out the feelings

Place it on the altar

It’ll stop the bleeding

Begging for forgiveness

Or am I lying to myself

I breathe when I’m awake so how could I know anything else

Staring at photos of us only makes things worse

A sinking feeling to digress the thoughts that won’t disperse

I once heard you say

“I love the way you think”

Everlasting life but only sorrow must repeat

Told there’s multiple choice answers

To every single one of life’s questions

But can you tell me why it feels like I’m running circles into depression

Hiding how I feel inside

The pressure is out

I’m stuck I can’t decide

I know, you left for a reason

But for now I am released

Forever resting in the wind

I can now be at peace

Utterly confused but still devoted to the sound

Faking laughs and smiles it’s a gift that I have found

Not a peep or else the guilt leads us to the ground

But trust me, that’s the goal

At least a token, to be forever bound

Don’t forget that you’re the one who created this wound

Nothing else diverts the night a truth I must consume

Belittle my division, all divine, immortal tune

First time I’ll ever admit you’re right, that I’m the devil’s muse

I tried to find the goals I seek through feelings that are evil

Conversations in the dark

Everything’s deceitful

Beauty runs through every lie divulge the beast lets burn our eyes

I'm gold though torn to shreds

My mind a stone always heavy weighing down my head

With all the tone shift a true believer

I’m the one and only true deceiver

I’ve relapsed

Even though I said I won’t

I’m going to leave today

For I have lied a bitter one

The goal was to feel

A lie I told to everyone

But mostly just to heal

(A lie i told to everyone, but mostly just to heal)

Blinded to every bridge I’ve ever burned

But that’s because the smoke has been the reason my head turns

Opposition my heart glistens