White lights are surrounding me, I can’t breathe

The thought of this keeps me from sleep

Walking around in circles the taste of this strip taints my sight I’m blinded

Alone empty and weak, the clocks bleed

Everything around me is pink

I can’t believe my feet keep walking towards the end of the street

The road blisters and boils everywhere, it's losing me, I’m full of sorrow, no speech

We forget the point in which we can return

I watch as the world continues to burn

Leave me here with my sins

An option of purе bliss

Crept into my skin

Almost out

The shine can’t keep withеring thin

Flowers wilt in non stop sunlight

Time passes, give meaning to my life

I am a demon, adulterated heathen

Oblivious deceiver cultivated by believing

Question my desire obligated by the fire

Hold that thought, the turning begins to transpire

Take a deep breath, lost my mind

Trickle down like water, I have nothing left to find

Perverse, contort, justify your own court

Take a deep breath

Watch the wind

Collect your thoughts, hold them deep within

Erase everything I’ve built

Knock down my faith

Remorse fills my lungs with guilt

I feel my skin, tearing it off is my favorite sin

Truly sought out to be more than light

Life drains us, leaves us here to die

It’s the balance

Collisions in my head

I beg to be abandoned

Utmost divinity, the paper brings respect

We’re nothing but a disgusting hole

Waste away with no regrets

Your desire means nothing to the fire

The road breaks apart again

A drought is caused inside my mind

Genuinely cannot see with open eyes

Lost in the woods, stumble upon guilt

(I want to be free)

I must reflect

I’m just upset

Cannot accept

That I’m depressed

The sky is lined with a version of black eyes

Belligerent controlling, bastardized intent

Breathing bliss, born into this

You never let me live it down

I swore to you I’d wear this crown

Hearing every single moment of regret I’ve lived up until now, broadcasted live and burnt into my skin

I’m a living monument of everything you hate

Don’t try to hide your feelings

I’ll die before I walk back into the dirt

You eat away at my skin from the inside out

I’m in pain because of everything I’ve dealt with

These words echo through me like material delusion in the woodwork

I try to hide the emotional distress

But I’m diseased, this life isn’t for me

Everything seems like it’s being brought to life

The mark of forbidden intelligence, no single disguise

All of your lies swarm to me like flies, unholy divinity

The oppression built upon disrespectful desire

Justify the ways I’ve been abused, I see through everything

Even if I’m confused, the light blisters

My peaking has only just begun

Double take, the ground shakes

Losing perception looking back, yearn for more

Counting the seconds as the sound of the ticking beckons

Opportunity blessing my deception

Mortal disposition, writing it all here

Religious diffusion

Looking at my reflection, am I infected

With everything you left

I am not going to lie hoping to never again open my eyes

At one point I have to admit that I was being torn apart limb from limb

Everything that I’ve learned

I’ll take it with me to my grave

This is only just the beginning

A newfound reason to preach about every feeling I’ve ever faked

A newfound reason to continue this simulated game

I haven’t lost myself, or have I

And I’m just making excuses

Confusingly grabbing at my head as I shake it

I can’t shake this empty feeling

Why do I regret so much

Why do I regret so much

I am confused

I'm really sorry

I’m sorry for being me

I can’t believe you’d really leave

I’m sorry for being me

This ego

It must end