Perpetually

Falling into a trip of my own design

Losing myself inside my mind

A new cult, I offer up my soul

Guilted to change my personal perspective

No one will listen, i must give you all my last confession

I’m so sick of being here

These words mean nothing as I stare at myself with fear

This beautiful life, Lord I beg and plea

An offer to you, if you can’t save me

I’m ashamed, I’m sorry

Please just save your sorrow for my lifeless body

At the end lies thе endless light

Will I nevеr be apart of this life

Hopefully I’ll be a king to one

Otherwise I’ll carve my name into the sun

I’ll draw apart the times I ran away from you

But it’s no use I’m showing signs of becoming used

The cold fingers linger with the taste of forcing you

I’m hurt dubiously showing the world the truth

I’ll draw apart the times I ran away from you

I did bad things no one but me knows the truth

I’m sorry mom you know I tried to hide it

But here we are, everyone can see inside it

(I’ll trade the stars to exchange my life for yours

Smiling at me, delusionally

Hiding it all inside my head)

I’m not innocent, this much i’ve sought

The only way I’ll be happy is if someone helps me rot

I try to piece together the lines I tore apart

But there’s no hope, I’ll have to cross the line, the inevitable freedom

I’m so tired of waking up

When I come to an end, hopefully you’ll hear my songs

And understand this wasn’t a mistake

I’ve been in agony for years

Writing it here, begging to be heard

I’ve become a shell

Someone who lost perception of what’s real

You let me get this way

But no one would’ve guessed better because I know

I just wanted a taste

Formerly pressed by my own vision of God

Here I lay waste to the idea I sought

I’m no longer me, please use me

Until I cannot breathe

Chaotic misery

The absence of our demeanor

I’m trapped with a new light

Can you just let me live?