[Verse 1]

It's time to get this road on the track

I let it go before, but now I'm ropin' it back

And this might just be an emotional track

But I gotta let you know and open the latch

There's too much on my mind to keep it bottled inside now

I've cried away the tears, they've already dried out

It's time to let go of everything I've cried 'bout

But before that, listen to the words from my mouth

This apology is overdue, by so very long

I've done so much bad, and I owe you this song

I'm writing you this track, to show you I'm strong

I hurt a lot of people and I know it was wrong

I caused a lot of shit and I denied that I did

I pretended I knew nothing, I lied and I hid

I was in a lot of pain but I'd hide and I'd grin

Feel my sorry through the rhymes that I spit

It's painful for me to get this message across

But I need to patch up the hole in the wreckage I've caused

See growing up I had trouble being a good person

I had a good heart, but nobody to converse with

I was never treated right by many people at all

And "friend" wasn't a word I had any people to call

Growing up I always felt so twisted and voiceless

And I'd try so hard to ignore the whispering voices

It didn't take a genius to know that I was different

I was curse to live a life where nobody would listen

But that's where I was wrong, I had people who loved me

But I shoved them away, I didn't have it in me to be trusting

If there's one thing I could change about the way that I was then

It's that I wish I could have taken back the worry I caused them

Cause everyday Ray was out of his mind, and talking without thought

And always ignoring everything that every one of my teachers had taught

I took that first hit at 16, and ever since I've been a growing addict

Everyday chasing a new high, and a new way to find a new ride, always at it

Started chasing a way out more than I did my own dreams

See I've been silent inside lately, most powerful screams

Spitting bars and poppin bars, I'm acting hard, strong, yet independant

Nobody's ever been there with an arm reached out, so I gained my own independance

Climbing my way to the top, but always pop off, and follow up

They say Ray, you're depressed as fuck, you're hollow, yup

I'll never forget that you promised not to let me drown

Now I'm necking these bottles until I can't stand, a man down

I'm always running away from someone or something, but I've never gotten anywhere

Running from the child protection services, so many times they've tried to place us in child-care

So many times I've held in tears, only to eventually succumb and break-down

Lately I've been happier, so I guess really you could say I'm great now

Today I lost another light in my life, I only got two left, I'ma hold em real tight

Life's unfair and it's shit, I ain't got nobody to help me out of this pit

Oh, how I wish I could turn back time, back when I could call happiness something of mine

But depression has caved in, I'm trapped, screaming, save him, he's following the light

I'm trying to hold my life together, but I'm starting to crack under the pressure

It's all just too much to handle, it's like holding your hand over a lit candle

If it wasn't for rap, I have no idea where I'd be, probably in purgatory waiting for my soul to be released

So a massive thank-you to this music, that gave me the tools and I used them

To undrown myself from these problems useless, I used to drink booze, I'm addicted to smoke, abuse it

Now I just focus on the lyrics of these songs, only thing to get me through, but lost all hope

Momma didn't raise a quitter, that 12 year old boy standing at homeplate

And hitting homeruns, chasing those bases, to chasing a classmate

Learning life lessons like having love and being hate

Or being addicted to the pipe, a high everyday

Fucked off the resin, I know it's bad for my health, but I can't wait

But it's hard to achieve dreams when you got anxiety, depression & A.D.D. to top it

You desserted me, and that was the worst topping

And to top it off, like this glass full of Jack

Is that I know you don't want me, but I'm hoping you come back