[Intro]

I build and I build

Just to break down

I feel how I feel

Ain’t no way out

There was pain in my past

And there's pain now

No sunlight above me

Just rain clouds

Older but I'm in the same position

Poser, I act like it's fine — it isn't

Can't come to terms with my past decisions

Trauma's a picture, a lasting image

[Verse 1]

What can I say?

I'm just doing my best

Alone in this world

And it's hard to accept

A ghost in a shell

I ain't hard to forget

I know I mean well

I got heart but it's dense

Unstable, I'm lost

I'm all over the place

Unable to face

The mistakes that I made

There's things about me

That I wish I could change

At the еnd of the day

I just hope I'm okay

[Chorus]

Nevеrmind love

Nevermind trust

Nevermind me

Nevermind us

How can I think about anything

Other than everything?

I been through way too much

I just want things to be easy

I don't want to feel so extremely

Exhausted for once

I just want people to see me

And realize I'm not the person

They thought that I was

[Verse 2]

What's it gonna take

To get me out of this cycle

Of only feeling present

When I'm starting to spiral?

When I hurt myself

It's like I'm checking my vitals

So maybe I'm alright

Ain’t felt alive in a while

When I was just a kid

I thought my future was bright

But now it feels like it's impossible

To walk in the light

Cuz when you're trying to survive

You either fight or take flight

There isn't time to thrive

When you got a lot on your mind

Am I breathing or not?

Do I really exist?

Or is it all a dream?

Will I wake up from this?

Digging up my grave

Jumping in an abyss

Getting in my own way

I got problems to fix

Nothing matters now

I gotta focus on me

You're at a different stage in life

If you know what I mean

I gotta find out if there's color

That I just couldn't see

Or realize that everything's

As dull as it seems

[Chorus]

Nevermind love

Nevermind trust

Nevermind me

Nevermind us

How can I think about anything

Other than everything?

I been through way too much

I just want things to be easy

I don't want to feel so extremely

Exhausted for once

I just want people to see me

And realize I'm not the person

They thought that I was

[Verse 3]

So many noises

Can't turn off the voices

I swear they're like poison

Affecting my choices

Controlled like a puppet

Don't know how to function

Without being manic

That's called self-destruction

This phase isn't over

I can't even fake it

A smile on my face

Is a special occasion

There's tears in my eyes

On a regular basis

No peace in my mind

I ain't felt that in ages

Novocaine running through my veins

I'm becoming numb

You don't wanna know

About the place that I'm coming from

You don't wanna know

About the demons that I'm running from

You don't wanna know the real me

Cuz I'm one of 'em

Carrying weight

But can't lift up my spirits

They judge what I do

And they judge my appearance

Just leave me alone

Cuz I don't wanna hear it

I'm tryna get by in this life

Perseverance

[Chorus]

Nevermind love

Nevermind trust

Nevermind me

Nevermind us

How can I think about anything

Other than everything?

I been through way too much

I just want things to be easy

I don't want to feel so extremely

Exhausted for once

I just want people to see me

And realize I'm not the person

They thought that I was