Lost - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

Eyes like the ocean, so hypnotizing

My broken heart is what you’re symbolizing

My self esteem just began minimizing

Start showin’ love instead of criticizing me

I’m so over this world

But don’t give up yet, I’m not over this girl

I hate wakin’ up, I got what I deserved

I feel cold and alone, I was kicked to the curb

Twisted dark sadness, past the point of help

I’m the only one feelin’ this, me and no one else

Six to my head, give a fuck about my health

Nowadays, I don’t give a fuck about myself

The worst part is I don’t even know why

Thе worst part is I can’t cry when I try

Grief won’t leavе, I can feel it crawl inside

Get the fuck out, I don’t want you in my life

[Chorus]

Broken into pieces, I can’t seem to find a reason

I guarantee I’m a demon, I talk to him when I’m sleepin’

I’m losin’ my fuckin’ mind, nobody can hear me screamin’

I feel the pain in the mornin’, I feel the pain in the evenin’

In the nighttime too, got the nighttime blues

This the life I choose, got a lifeline fuse

I’ma die too soon with a skyline view

I’ma die too soon without a life with you

[Verse 2]

If I did it over, I would be somebody different

I wish tonight was a dream, unfortunately it isn’t

I’m a victim of a sickness, confined inside of a prison

The visions of my submission becomin’ extremely vivid

So shut up, just fuckin’ listen, not sure if I’m even livin’

I’m breathin’ and just existin’ I’m battlin’ a condition

I keep my emotions hidden, my spirit doin’ division

I don’t know what keeps me driven when I’m bound for a collision

Piecin’ up the puzzle, young and very troubled

I been left without a warning, gettin’ torn apart by struggle

Tryna speak freely, the real me in the muzzle

While everyone got a problem, I think I might got a couple

And I gotta go, I know where to be found

Want my soul set free, like nowhere to be bound

I’m dyin’ when I speak, but no one can see sound

Confused and I’m lost, but I never seem down