Released on October 18, 2019

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[Verse]

She said I’m so different, now she can’t see me the same

I’ve got so much issues that I can’t even explain

I’ve took so much drugs and drank so much I lost my brain

Girl I’m tryna change, that means facing all my pain

She knows all my secrets that I’ll never tell nobody

I feel blue, I’m losing touch, numb in my whole body

Tryna find some balance between me and what is not me

And I know I can’t do this alone, but she got me

Something in me is missing, when I open up, just listen

I’ve been keeping so much hidden shit that I cannot revisit

I fucked up the way I’m living, that made me want to give in

Then I gained an addiction that became a mental prison

I’m gone beneath the surface, I’m a complicated person

With lots of different versions, I don’t talk it makes me nervous

But I’m honest in my verses, I’m honest in my verses

And I'ma try and get my mind right before it worsens

My name is written up above us in the constellations

I’m still trying to find it, I’ve still have a thousand faces

​I’m still trying to overcome my trials and tribulations

God I’ve suffered long enough, stop the hallucinations

Only she can see me, I just want to be me

I wish that was easy, I wish I was dreaming

I wish I had meaning, inside I’m still bleeding

Broken but I’m healing, broken but I’m healing


[Chorus]

Mysterious, I'm strange, I’m the perfect shade of blue

I pray that the rain falls on my flames and makes me new

'Cause right now I still question my reflection, who is who

At war with my personas and I can’t afford to lose

Mysterious, I'm strange, I’m the perfect shade of blue

I pray that the rain falls on my flames and makes me new

'Cause right now I still question my reflection, who is who

At war with my personas and I can’t afford to lose