[intro]:
I've been awake for 24;
Go to sleep for 20 more;
On a high, ain't coming down until I'm face down on the floor
In a manic episode;
I'm tryna make it through this storm;
I'm so close to letting go, I'm on the fence I guess I'm torn
[Verse 1]:
I got no motivation;
Stuck in the same situation;
Won't tell a soul about my problems, that's too much information
I have a bad reputation;
Got called a sad mental patient;
I used to care what people think, I used to want validation
It-it's so hard to be me
No one has it harder than me;
And I know that's hard to believe, but the truth is so hard and to see
All my scars hide under my sleeve;
Can't wait 'til I'm under the leave;
But I pray this gun is in sync, 'cause that will make everyone scream
And I don't wanna cause no pain to anybody that be selfish;
So my actions are my own, and growing more than no one elses;
I ain't crying, never help 'cause no one cares so no one's helping;
My anxiety's been killing me, it's dark and overwhelming
Sadness runs in my genetics, I got fucked up DNA;
I can't tell y'all where my head is, i don't know, it's up in flames;
Another day, another dead end down every road I take;
DRB, my flow's poetic, 'cause I'm spilling real pain
[break]:
I'm at war with my reflection;
I get way too retrospective;
I'm a loner, no connections;
Lord, I'm asking for protection;
Lord, I'm asking for a sign;
Lord, I'm begging for a blessing;
I'm at Hell, can't see the light;
I need you to pay me some attention
[Verse 2]:
Nothing's making any sense, I can't move on 'cause nothing's next man;
What the fuck have I been doing? All these years I'm fucking stressed;
I'm pissed and disappointed, all these feelings get way too intense;
The only damn control that I have is the way that they're expressed
(Season) Seasonal depression, I'm sad every season though;
What the fuck are dreams ? Shut up, please, I don't believe in those;
A sinner, I have secrets, yo, that only me and Jesus knows;
So does everybody else, never believe what people show
It's all theatrics, I'm too real so I ain't acting;
Fake smiles, fake love, too exotic with the passion;
I'm a product of neglect, so I struggle with detachment;
What's it like to be happy? that's something that I can't imagine
Look, I'm fucked up off the Hennessy;
I drink, don't go to therapy;
It heals me temporarily, i wake up feeling terribly;
Nobody is me, so we don't share no similarities;
I don't fuck with no one, but got so much popularity
[Break]:
And I feel okay, but only when I'm t-d up;
When I'm sober, I'm a piece of shit, I freeze up;
God I'm calling 'cause I'm crashing out, I need ya;
It gon' take a lot to make me believe ya
[Outro]:
Running, I'm running, I'm running away
Running, I'm running, I'm running away
All life, I know I can die any day
On life, I know I can die any day
24, 24, 24
And go to sleep for 20 more, then wake up, face down on the floor
24, 24 24
And go to sleep for 20 more
And go to sleep for 20 more