selective morality (extended)

[Verse 1]

I remember early that year

Spiraling into a friendship

That I hadn't predicted

I wanted to welcome it

For a little while, it felt so clear

You were somethin' that I looked forward to

I wanted to wipe away your tears

But I couldn't reach you

Your eyes always speared through mine

I felt your stare through the back of my head

I lied and told you that I was fine

I just needed to go to bed

I'm just like you

I just liked you

[Verse 2]

All the stupid memories we madе

Felt like I'd known you longer

But I know I didn't

And if I'm bеin' honest

I wish I'd knew more about you

Is it my fault?

Did I not try hard enough?

Was it the edge of the cuff?

You're so much better than me

I think that you should know

Don't ever take the worst for free

You catch more than you throw

I'm just like you

Go on and be you

[Verse 3]

I was kind of a dick

Did a lot a shit I regret but I'm glad we're alright though

Or at least I hope so

I never really know how to read you

Whenever you're about to speak

I always think I got you figured out

Then you go and ride a different cloud

I'd always compared myself to you

To the point where I hated your guts

In all types of ways I'd envy who you'd become

(Felt kinda good to get that off my chest, I don't know)

[Interlude 1]

(Tryna steal my fl—?)

(It's gay!)

(Ooh, and Asia—)

(My hands are so shaky, I look like an old person)

[Verse 4]

I remember late last year

Never fell asleep, got to talk to you a lot

I think we have the same thoughts

I wanted you to be my friend

I pray that this'll never end and I get to be

There right by your side

Your run of the mill "partners in crime"

Your mind's a loaded gun

You always know what you want

I'll never live up to who you're gonna be

[Build]

To who you're gonna be

You never even needed me

[Breakdown]

But I needed you

I needed you

(And it starts with somethin' new)

[Interlude 2]

Hi Alex, it's Claire!

And Shree!

Yup, we are sitting in my car right now, um

Ope, that person's about to park in the not allowed spot

Not good

Anyway, um, pick up your phone

Please, whore!

To replay this message, press o—

[Verse 5]

Was it a crush?

I couldn't even tell you

Plainly enough

Think I was fallin' for a part of somethin' I'd never felt

You were the catalyst, raisin' your Hell in my mind

But it never looked like you never gave a shit

So I let myself cave in

Like I always did

[Verse 6]

Sometimes I feel like I was barely a friend

And it's all my fault

I'd hate to be a person you forget in the end

But I'm ready for whatever comes next

Realized that you were the only one

Who never pissed me off

Feels like I chase the conflict just to heal a scar

[Verse 7]

Why can't I just piece it together like you do all the time?

It's never been worth it, why do I even try?

I feel so insignificant at the end of the night

Convincin' myself that it's a feeling that'll go away

But it always stays

Am I ashamed of who I portray?

Can't help feelin' like shit when I'm next to you

(I can't wait to never see you again)

[Outro]

You shouldn't hear this from me