Was gonna start with slow beat so I sat here and tried that

Nothing came out, there's a reason behind that

It's quite bad, but that's a feeling that I lack

Can't go soft cos i'm a dick and that's my bad

But what do you do when you gotta go through what I had

And can't stand, showing weakness I might have

Frightened her off, turns out she's not like that

Obsessin over her because she knows how to fight back

We're not hitting and kickin' each other if that's what you're thinkin' more like we're puzzling pieces no one expected to fit in the definition of different like we were losing and winnin' illuminating and dimming excruciatingly bringing me to a stop

Was losing the plot

Shaking and nervous that I would break this on purpose but laid my cards on the table and said "I love you a lot"

She said she loved me too

Well fuck who knew that rubber stuck to glue

Cos as we rushed it too was terrified that I wouldn't be enough for you

Or too tough to chew

But you fucking proved that you won't budge or move and I was such a fool to have assumed that I couldn't put my trust in you

Can't open up

I'm frozen shut cos i'm cold as fuck and I know my luck

Every time I open up, it's over, sucks

So thats a mistake that I don't make but it's insane games that I won't play given' me a headache, dead weight crushing on my rib cage shit sake can't you see that you deserve better than a headcase?

This situation is something that I never would of predicated

I've met my match with an attitude you could say I'm addicted

There's no restrictions with this drug no side effects to be listed that make a mess of my system leave me confused and or distant

How can I be conflicted?

Got the perfect person in front of me voices telling me run away though it might seem like fun today she's gonna see that i'm twisted

It's unmissable

And no amount of syllables clever rhymes or lyrical tricks will hide the cynical side of my despicable way of life i'm difficult

That's an understatement

But the changes I'll make for you unlimited range to choose whatever it takes to prove that you rearrange my view would dig my own grave for you

Can't express the regret that I get when I've said something you won't forget cos it gets stuck in your head and that was not my intent I never meant to offend or to upset you again it's a fuckin shit show

Won't risk you for this though

I'll give it up, the side of me that's a prick, oh it's simple reduce it from a wave to a ripple, a flame to a fizzle cos without you i'm crippled

I took your hand and the colour came

Flooding back it overwhelmed the grey

Blinded at first defying frightend of hurting the colour shining was certain this was a play close the curtain and explain

What did I do to deserve this?

Somebody that's so perfect the purpose of the short circuiting furnace that I call a brain is to prove to you that I'm worth it