Would I turn back the time if I had the choice to start again?

Try another route, remove the chaos planted in my head?

Would I lose my powers that were granted by a lack of friends

If I grabbed the hour hand and reversed it to go back to when

I was just a kid, but this time round I was attacking them?

Slappin' and jabbin’ em' till I see their confidence shattering

An emotional battering, to me it's a battery

Been running flat recharging, you’re still stuck in the packaging

I was ripped from my comfort zone and given two choices

Turn in the script, i'd been reading from work alongside the voices

Or I could quit, tryna push myself, admit that it's pointless

I gotta give, up the script, never guessed the pills would be poisonous

Leave me joyless

I was told they're meant to help you not hurt you

Well I guess, lesson learned but i'm not gonna argue i'm superhuman because of what I went through I developed a wider view

But now I question was it even worth it, what if I were to?

Bring back the hours

Turn back the time

Take away my powers

No reason or rhyme

Let the seconds bleed away

Let the minutes fade to grey

Live to fight another day

Live to fight another day

If I make a desicion to go one way or the other

Could try and live a normal life pretend I never discovered

What it's like to suffer, feel like you're being smothered

To be sitting in a silent room but you’re hearin’ thunder

Inside my ears was a drummer there was no running for cover

And with each hour creeped, a deeper fear of another

Year without colour I was seeing a shutter

As my breathing got tougher

Too numb to cry, couldn't recognise my own mother

As I plummeted, said fuck it i’m done with it i'm gunnin' it

Don't wanna play with me? Bitch i’ve been struck down recovering

Sufforing more this week, than you've ever seen must be puzzling

How I take ADD, use it to fuel words i'm uttering

Now I find myself wonderin' did I choose the right option

Isolated in my room because I lost the urge for talkin'

Debating back and forth that if this path i've adopted is what I wanted or if I should cut my losses and stop it