[Verse 1: Def MC 4Life]

Steady my eyes inside a mirror

Searching for the heart of me, but it's not here

And outside they drinkin', they bangin' on my wall

Say I'm anti-social, right now I guess I are

They don't really get it that my back's against the door

My mind is somewhere else, and I'm sitting on the floor

The room is spinning round, and damn, I need to stop

But I keep going on to top another shot

Can't read the words I text, but I hope they tell you off

And I hope those jumbled letters convey my every thought

I hope your new man ain't there so we can talk

I haven't heard your voice in a minute, just to bullshit, surely not

Memories tend to blur on past, still I stay here tippin' my glass

Bass bumping to the tune of a Royalty track

But I know a slow song is the one after that

(You alright, homeboy?)

I wanna write some bars, what rhymes with betrayal?

Details within a cause

Damn, I'm lost, forget what I spoke

And half the words have gone missing in the stuff that I've wrote

Wanna keep flow going, but my key is off note

I can hear that metal hanger pick the lock in the door

Knowing well that they can't get it picked

Scooping water to my face just to try to forget

They say they wanting in, but I hug to the sink

And I'm feeling kinda sick, I need some water to drink

Yeah, that and a couple more minutes to think

I should write your next letter in indelible ink

Then I get myself up and out of hiding

I met at the door by the girl that I invited

She puts her hand in mine and guides me to the porch

And I'm back on the track I was headed on before (Damn)

[Chorus: Dat Fly D & Def MC 4Life]

Try to climb my way up, up to the top (Morningstar)

But every step that I take seems to bring me down, oh oh

(Seems to bring me down, bring me down, bring me down)

(Bring me down, bring me down)

Gotta help me get to the top

(Gotta help me get to the top, top, and break this)

You're my only hope if I'm ever gonna make it through (Yeah)

And now, if I can have this last chance to prove to you (Yo)

I'm ready (So ready)

To be the way you always wanted me to be

(Want to be, have to be, got to be)

[Break: R. Wintermoyer & T. Umstead]

Hey, nice of you to show up

(Where's he at? Hey people!)

[Verse 2: Def MC 4Life]

As the night wears on, so does my mood, and I'm feeling withdrawn

Ice in the sink, liquor's all gone

Words from my crew "Def, you gotta stay strong"

So sick of cliches, real talk

Words to relate, come across old thoughts

Scribble lines out, and I've written down blocks

How it went down, lost in a crowd

Lost in a sound, guess it's all played out

Guess it all ended up a way I never thought how

I new chick say she wanna just sing

She wrote a few things, if I want she'll bring it

She got a notebook with some poems, own ink

She seem a little shy, but not when she drinks

That mean that she down for my team

And got a reputation for a one-night fling

I might just spring, I might say fuck it

Just do the damn thing, or leave it all be

Eyes so low, can't focus anything

Then I step back and attempt to just breathe

Tap water ice makes watered-down tea

Ready with my book, so I let my pen bleed

Still I know that I've made it through worse

I start to sit down with my incomplete verse

These are the words that I writ that night

Passed shawty off on my homeboy Mike

The very next morning, I bought a new beat

I rewrote the song six times that week

But I'ma do me, that's all I can do

One day, you will see what I really went through and

[Chorus: Dat Fly D & Def MC 4Life]

Try to climb my way up, up to the top (Morningstar)

But every step that I take seems to bring me down, oh oh

(Seems to bring me down, bring me down, bring me down)

(Bring me down, bring me down)

Gotta help me get to the top

(Gotta help me get to the top, top, and break this)

You're my only hope if I'm ever gonna make it through (Yeah)

And now, if I can have this last chance to prove to you (Yo)

I'm ready (So ready)

To be the way you always wanted me to be

(Want to be, have to be, got to be)

[Outro: Def MC 4Life]

Never felt this way

Never felt committed

I made a big mistake

At least I can admit it

Shorty, I will prove

I'm ready right now to lay this life down for you