Self Harm - Intellectual

[Verse 1: DeeKay]

When I was fourteen I met a bad bitch

She taught me self harm, never wanna have this

I never met a bitch so evil in my life

She told me sit down, I'll cut you with a knife

I see my wrists bleed

Didn’t think I would ever need help

Now I’m feeling at the bottom of the shelf

I pop a Xan just too keep intact

I see a tree and I pull up with the big belt

Big help, tummy tuck, bitch

Feeling funny when I RIP in this bitch

What about the bands?

What about the money?

What about the time you left me with nothing?

I got nothing in my life

I got nothing left to live for

Self harm hurts

But it kinda fucking hurts more

When you got no one, living by yourself

Paying all the rent so I keep close to the belt

Thinking bout cutting myself (myself)

And I see no one else (no one else)

Look at it knife on the floor (on the floor)

Looking at the sky turns to grey now (grey now)

Am I gonna be missin' my friends now? (friends now?)

I'm not gonna be missing a thing now (thing now)

Self harm never hurt less

I’m at the end fuck, yeah, I’m a big mess

Every girl I ever talked too hate me

She made me cry

Felt afraid so I'm counting up the days

That I got left in this world

So I now I gotta earn each day

'Cause one second one moment

It could all get taken away

With the slash of a knife feel the gut wrench pain

It’s the self harm way

That I do all this shit

Felt so afraid from the day that I left you

Never text you

But, bitch, I never left you