*Sigh*

Dear diary

I’m sitting up in my bed

I’m sitting here all alone

Thoughts up in my head

Like where did I go wrong

We were so much better than this

You built me up

Just to break me down again

And I hate when I feel like this

When I get numb and I start to reminisce

Whoa

Why did I deserve this

And I know I know nobody’s perfect

But you you did me dirty

You said you’ll never hurt me

And I

I don’t get it

Like you don’t you don’t hurt people that you love

And if you can just easily hurt someone you say you love

You never loved them

You lied you lied

You told me so much lies

With no remorse

Looked me dead up in my eye

And you wiped my face

From every tear I cried

Only to find out you had people on the side

And

I fell deep

I fell real deep

Was up under your love spell

It was like you were controlling me

Now I feel bad

I feel real bad

I don’t wanna end things

But I see that is what’s best for me

And you’ve been doing

What was best for you the whole time

And should I feel bad for doing me?

Like yo

You- pshhh

Man

You wasted my time

You don’t get time back man you just-

You got me sitting here going crazy

We used to talk on the phone on a daily

And I’ve been feeling all alone here lately

Can somebody wake me from this dream

This can’t be

Reality

Gets real and realer everyday

I no longer believe anything you say

And if you weren’t happy here

You could’ve told me

And it would’ve been hard

But I would’ve set you free

Like you made me-

Ohhh

I’m getting all mushy just thinking about it

You made me the happiest person

It was like home

But if you weren’t happy

I would have let you go so you can be happy

It’s crazy

I won’t seek for no revenge

Things have ended

You did what you did to me

You were my bestfriend

I held you down when times got hard

But you did me wrong

You broke my heart

And I still love you

I’ll always love you

But I can’t keep on letting you treat me

Like I’m nothing

You said you’re sorry

And I forgive you

But the hardest thing has been

Trying to forget you

And when it comes to love

There’s no handbook

There’s no warning sign

You just jump in

And

And you probably moved on

And I want you to be happy

But as for me

I-