Who knows how it happened?

Retracing it, it’s clear the end was seeded from the start

Unnatural disasters

The weight grew as it promised forever

Then it fell apart

The lapse of your teamwork is

Bread in water lined in black, a tensionhardened glare

It did not breach the surface

Spreading underneath, a cancer choking out the air

Between no, now and later -

Every collapse cuts into the urge to walk

Against the shrouded faces

Each beaming blank sansserif on a yellow box

I can’t handle the truth

I thought i could, but

I couldn’t make it through

I couldn’t drive all of 2009

Because my license expired and i had to start over to reapply

When i go out at night, i look toward the northern sky

All the while a camera follows me everywhere

And i can never leave it behind

Try as i might

I know they’re right

It was good while it lasted

The light burns out of their eyes

And i know how it happened