I've been sitting in my empty apartment

Staring at the red stain on the carpet

There's a monster in me and I fed it

Chasing after the dream with bad credit

And I don't wanna go outside

There's nothing for me there

I just wanna stay inside

I feel safer

And I feel so ashamed as I circle the drain

Friends don't call

Family don't care

In my void of endless despair

All I do is bleach my hair and hope that they don't notice

The cracks across the surface and the look on my face

And I feel so ashamed as I circlе the drain