(Chorus - Nate):
I’m walking down this road
Trying to find my home
Lost myself long ago
And now I’m so far gone
Darkness clouds my mind
Tried to take my life
Can’t confide in no one
Cause I feel so far gone
(Verse - David Torrez)
My mind is in a blank state
I’m mistaken
Walking between these thoughts of wrong or right
Sitting in this blank patch
Wondering if it was right
Maybe I should’ve let her go
I was out of time
By the time she wanted me
My love was out of sight
Can’t let her know that I wanted her to find
Out all the truth from the rumors and all the lies
I didn’t start ‘em cause I’m way too good for that!
Hate when people start rumors or chain mail
Sick of the fact that you people think you hate bail
Nowadays lies getting people in trouble
Don’t say nothing unless you have stuff to back it up
Back in 2004
When I was brought into this world
I was told I’d become bright
Grow and possess something bold
Then I woke up in this hell
Already I had known
That this music was my own
And I was gone on my own
Sitting at the red light
Waiting for it to turn green
I was already demeaned
By the fact that it was stopping me
I wanted to go
Hit the gas and a state trooper watched me!
(Chorus - Nate):
I’m walking down this road
Trying to find my home
Lost myself long ago
And now I’m so far gone
Darkness clouds my mind
Tried to take my life
Can’t confide in no one
Cause I feel so far gone
(Verse - David Torrez):
Where’d those pills go that I bought?
Where’d my last love go?
Where’s all my sickened thoughts?
Where’s the last girl who said she would’ve held me when I was in this state?
She’s gone and she left without me!
Now I’m on my knees
I’m begging and pleading
Feeling pain all by myself
Wishing she was here to help
But she thought I could survive
Buried on my own
But when my legs all are broken
How am I supposed to grow?
So much burden on my shoulders
Since I took this name
David Torrez going through stages of depression while he’s holding breaks
I got a reputation now
Have a whole state
Now I understand what it means to be dedicated
Every single day
They remind of my true purpose
Venting all my pain and emotion through my cold music
Releasing it to all the children and the people who really need it
Not giving a crap about what they say
Now I’m here
It’s April 30th today
Sitting on the cold porch
Waiting for my ride to play
(Chorus - Nate):
I’m walking down this road
Trying to find my home
Lost myself long ago
And now I’m so far gone
Darkness clouds my mind
Tried to take my life
Can’t confide in no one
Cause I feel so far gone
(Verse - David Torrez):
Put down the microphone
Sit on the floor
Recorder next to me
Venting through the door
Scared of what’s next
I don’t wanna go
I wanna stay here and continue to grow!
I can’t take the pain that they wanna have me feel
Ever since Mindset I’ve always been on this wheel
Depressed and crying with these motives of how I feel
Every single day wishing that someone would get me help
Now it’s today
A better day then yesterday
I’m sitting on this porch
Still waiting for my ride to play
Me and my girl just talked a second ago
She told me that she don’t even wanna talk no more?!
I’m so sick of this
If she would’ve told me this before
I would’ve cried and forgave it
But now I’m new
Changed and better than ever
I don’t give second chances
Girl just leave me alone
I’m already gone
And I’m broken on my own
Till the day that I die
Let these other rappers know
That I’m gone
And I’m sand and I’m ashes on my own
Till the day that they put me 6 feet under
I will redeem every chance
Like Redemption without comfort
I was happier before I woke up in this weather
Now I’m feeling so much pain
It won’t leave and it decays
It shows me that I’m fading
Please say goodbye today
(Chorus - Nate):
I’m walking down this road
Trying to find my home
Lost myself long ago
And now I’m so far gone
Darkness clouds my mind
Tried to take my life
Can’t confide in no one
Cause I feel so far gone