I got nothing but evil to offer to these people

I’m hoping my presence is the sharpest of 3 needles

Not a killer but I kinda’ wish I could give it a try

Be getting thoughts of homicide but still I can’t defy

Who I really am inside strategize a plan to hide

Give me rules to follow promise you I can’t abide

I’m not a criminal, really just a wannabe

Too much value put on honesty there is no spot for me

Inside of a crew I’m a lone wolf but really brave

Since I crave a lot I get hurt it be lesser if I lay

And drop my ambitions and then commit to living different ways

It’s my game I go for high reward with risk and pain

If I didn’t find a girl who was on board with this

I’m sure I’d live In misery forever and the torment would

Just drive me to my death a suicide at 33

Wouldn’t do it in my home I’d be preferring me

To end in the forest my hate is so enormous

I’d rather have a painful death my pride I show the purest

Man It’s all about the message that I’m sending with my death

That I needed to be away from my society for my last breath

That I’m an animal I’m radical and had to pull

Everybody on board down we are not compatible

I really don’t relate at all to my fam and it’s sad

Faking that we’re making conversation it’s had me so mad

With emotional quotient they are deficient

And they let you down you’re hoping you’re hoping it will be different

But it just never is so you’re better if

You stay out of their life and then reap all the benefits

And then they see you as a disappointment no employment

So they judge you based on what they see but what they are avoiding

Is the worth that I have in my girl’s life a lifesaver

I’ve talked her down from suicide before I fight braver

Then all of you put together you don’t know the war I’m in

My heart is big I give it all to her I’m born again

But she’s borderline I’m walking on eggshells

My head dwells with nowhere to release I can’t even exhale

I struggle writing it down and venting my pain

She’s my number 1 fan I feel she’ll be afraid

But she always encourages me and now I think we’re ready for it

We Can’t ignore it every song I touch is getting morbid

I Wish I could only paint you as an angel

Nothing painful cause I’m grateful I’ve raised you and I’m forever faithful

Love to be your superhero wanna save you

And I’m able even though I’m unstable there’s no betrayal

Borderline but beautiful and don’t you die the funeral

Would have to be me as well cause living without you is hell

Your abusers they both gotta pay

A victim in childhood that doesn’t go away

The damage that they did it broke apart your identity

And you cannot reach serenity with all these extremities

Man an enemy is anyone who goes against my girl

And that could be the whole world don’t mind having a quarrel

With humanity as a whole society they’re dull

Was bullied as a kid because I’m smarter than you all

And I’m an odd ball was thinking that God called

At eighteen but it was psychosis now I’m hostile

By the time my life is done I’m gonna damage Religion

It’s naïve and it’s evil It should be banned from existing

There’s not a God or an afterlife but I believe in the spirit

Just because I’m an atheist doesn’t mean that I don’t feel it