[Instrumental Intro]
[Verse 1: Tay, MerreGold]
I wonder if I'd still want to kiss him if he were still here
Or am I just lying to myself so I know I'm a queer
I wish you could see me now
I'm so much prettier than I ever was back then
[Verse 2: Tay, MerreGold, Tay & MerreGold]
Do you ever think about me?
Or do you walk past my hall in your brain without second thought?
I can't say you contaminate me, but to say droplets aren't there?
Well, that would be a lie
[Verse 1: Tay, Tay & MerreGold]
Sometimes, I think of you as a first
But then I remember Devon still exists
What am I really feeling if it's not a crush?
Is it guilt, or is something fucked in my brain?
[Verse 4: Tay & MerreGold]
Kick this boy from my house
'Cause a boy like that doesn't belong in this town
'Cause I don't feel this like you do
I'm sorry—I promise it's not that I don't want to