[Verse]

I'm such a wreck without trying

Hold it together, Matt, piling

All your stress in a corner will send you nothing but spiraling

Say I'm okay but I'm lying

Tell you that everything's fine, but there's something empty inside

Like something is lost or I'm dying

Next I'll be broken and crying

Screaming and wondering why she couldn't just stay and be mine

Turned forward and left me behind

So did my friends, went to find their lives and move on from the times

We would just pile in and drive, go somewhere fun and еxciting

And so my demons are fighting

I want a girl, but I'm silent

Evеry time that they walk by because I am scared of their judgement

And what if all that they see

Is just a creep who's still young and vile, disgusting and violent, can’t even manage his time

He tries too hard with the timing

It’s funny 'cause he's always right

Nobody wants someone like me

Least that's the feeling that I be

I'm gross and unsexy

I always play my own heartstrings and fall instantly in love with any girl who respects me

I know I have to stay strong

I know it's not about wealth, it's all about time and learning to deal with myself

To be supportive and loving to me when I am unwell

To stitch together the broken shards of a beautiful shell

Because inside all we want, simply is to hold and be held

To be wrapped inside someone’s arms, to cry and then melt

Maybe someday I will get that, to feel what I felt

Until then, I will simply try to better myself

So if you're out there and hear me, whether you are like me or else

This is my little way of standing up and ringing the bell

And if you want a man who cares

Come cast on me, Spells

'Cause I would loyally support you always answer your cell

Care, be there, and always listen

Help you to care for your health

I'd give you everything I have and teach you to love yourself

'Cause deep down, I'm a just fixer and I have so much to give

Whoever you are, I'm waiting for the day that we will live