(Intro)

I often refer to my mind as

An ocean of insecurity

This ocean is never still

But instead it varies in intensity and activity

Right now it is as calm as possible

This stage is called

Tidal waves

In this stage

I'm faced with many ups and downs

I rise and regress

I come to face with peace

Sometimes

And if I need release

I just may write some rhymes

But nevertheless… I'm trapped

Ok so no profanity has crossed my teeth

But I still curse in the thoughts I think

I know a ticket to freedom was bought for me

Therefore I'm the only thing stopping me

From walking free

But it's tough to see

A life away from insecurity

See this insecurity was birthed

Further than I can remember

1st grade at my church-school

We did praise and worship each morning

And I kinda wanted to participate

But the ocean came storming

These lines important

I thought if I moved I'd be taunted at

Like if I jump around they're gonna laugh

That kid put up the 10” glass

And I just watched praise and worship pass

And that resonates sometimes to this day

One on ones in class don't know what to say

And so I run away because

I'm used to being That Kid

Like if I speak up I'll be laughed at and

Humiliated

So I sit back

Relax

Come to peace

Relapse

Look back at that kid and see him laugh

Surfs a wave as he passed

Splashed a thought in my face:

Them scars still ain't erased…

Ok but they've begun to fade

Ima state my claim

Stand my ground

Jump for joy till this glass falls down

I won't run away

Ima take these pounds

Won't be knocked out

I will rejoice till the sun and moon make rounds

Because peace comes in the morning

THen the ocean begins storming

Then these bad thoughts begin pouring in

My visionś skewed and distorted

This time itś too huge to ignore it

I put on my headphones that don't let noise in

See my friends and ignore them

Keep my eyes pointed the ground

To avoid any eye contact

As if I want that

And so I hide behind my hat

Only looking up to find my class

Then its right back down to attack my pad

Find The Lake and I just might laugh

Get a beat stuck in my head

And this just might last

Get home at night and I lay my tracks

Then jump in bed cause my bedtimeś passed

In the morning a new cycles lap

Yeah

Yeah

Yeah…

I told y'all the ocean is no game

I claim peace but adore pain

That kid said DuSean is still your name

D Hawk I've clipped your wings

I will not be ignored

You will not end my story yet

I can still take charge don't forget

I'm the only one who can get you out of this

Without me you're a goner

Sure to implode

Mr. Suicide bomber

Tapped on my shoulder

My friends don't know what they're doing

Instantly my mood shows improvement

Smile and resparked my revolution

Recreating my revelation

Reminding me I'm not alone

Reminding me that they're here with me

Pulling me from insecurity

And I continue trying to live perfectly