Sleepless nights, an endless daze, this depression a relentless phase

Mind trapped in a twisted maze yet these bars free me from this cage

Guilt and remorse cause you’re a corpse but dwelling on it makes it worse

Every time I close my eyes I see you fall to gravity’s force

Twisted visions playing out right behind my sockets

Driving me insane, I try but cannot stop it

Suicidal whispers, desperate to block it

Full to the brim about to spill it’s not time to kick the bucket

Out with this madness not me I swear I will not give in despite the many tears

Life is too precious to waste, and even though you gave it up with haste

I know you too well to say this was your chosen fate

But these things we realize often too late

Pills to take these memories away

What will kill this pain and make it fade

Some do it for the hell of it

But if it’s not a choice do you think well of it

It’s not a lifestyle that I chose

What holds me up also keeps me close

To the knowledge that I can’t turn back

I won’t stop it when fades away to black

My teenage years were troubled, in and out the psych ward

On different medications, and I could barely have my word

Or say on what was happening, override the cyborg

Had me feeling so cold and mechanical my lord

The doctors prescribed the pills for my own good

Drug pushers on the block or are they state-sponsored

I can hardly tell the difference; man this is way too absurd

Supposed to help me at least that’s what they made sure I understood

Bipolar what they labeled me, experienced dark dreams and ecstasy

Mood swings up and down, the blessed curse of lunacy

I see it’s a gift, it gave me creativity

But it’s a burden on my health, when it starts to hinder me

The worst is when family sees me and starts to get affected

Knowing this dark self-hatred was what got my dad addicted

So for his sake, that’s a path that I just can’t take

This life’s a dream that fades away; I pray I see him when I wake

So one day I awoke

To find a ray of sun

Shining down on me

I hear a voice say son

This the day you waited for

Your true life has begun

My troubles fade away to black

And not even one

Remains to haunt me

I feel the freedom of being care free

Reunited with the ones we lost

It is extraordinary

So overcome how can this be

A vision or a memory

You shimmer in front of me

Fade away back to reality

Maybe just a mirage yet it’s one that gave me hope

So even if I depend on drugs it is better than sliding down the slope

Into hopelessness and worthlessness that is not my self

So these feelings of inferiority I finally put them on the shelf

Picture before you a blank and empty page

The ink stains of your past, watch them slowly fade

The pen is in your hand now anything might be

Now turn your destiny into your memories