All of you are

What I'm not

My jealousy

Is building thought

This rising hate

So long I've fought

Try to control my rage

This text of life I wrote

Can I turn the page

Psychotic urges

Should not engage

Should not engage

My closest ones

Lost to death

Or I pushed away

Everyone that cared

I'm skeptic

And paranoid

Can I ever escape

Escape this void

Blackened tears

Filling up my eyes

Blood drips on finger tips

I paint

I paint a new disguise

My new disguise

Past regrets and bullet sweats

Drug dose and cigarettes

These ashtrays

So full of shame

I drag a match

Ignite the flame

Past loves that left me dry

Left me here to wonder why

But I'm the issue

I can’t deny

Self doubt that’s infinite

I'm a liar and hypocrite

Living soul of mistrust

Spark the flame to combust

Spark the flame to combust

Persistence of natural instincts

Willpower hard to distinct

A voice inside tells me to move on

A voice inside that’s been silent for too long

Between my darkest desires

And all of you who conspire

Have left me

I'm the one you left to die

Left alone, I wonder why

My darkest desire

All of you conspire

Some wounds you cannot heal with time

Bells toll, you hear the chime

Downward spiral, I can't climb

I've lost the war, this is the time

Wave the flag, I forfeit

It's ok, I'm used to it

Maybe its time for me to

Bleed the sickness

Wave the flag, I forfeit

It's ok, I'm used to it

Maybe its time for me to

Bleed the sickness