Maybe I said too much
By saying nothing at all
I always feel so tense
Smothered in cortisol
You want a picket fence
I am a concrete wall
Lacking in common sense
Smelling of alcohol
Grass in the cracks of the warm desert concrete
Faded graffiti in alleys and backstreets
Discarded pages of tabloid magazines
These are the things that we passed on the way home
Opened the door to our messy apartment
You said some things and then I said some things too
You went upstairs and when I triеd to follow
You said that you wanted to be alone and thеn
The argument faltered into screaming and violence
Torn up upholstery into 2 weeks of silence
Look at myself in the mirror that I shattered
Guess it distorted my self reflection
All caught in 4K and burned into my mind
Put in on rewind and watch it in real time
I can remember all of the details
Except the reason that it even started
When did you realize it just doesn't matter
Who's in the wrong when it's wrong in the first place
Sarcastic answers to cynical questions
Indignant words from the top of the staircase
Recurring nightmares of sentences spoken
Resentment born over promises broken
I wasn't sure as to what I was doing
All that was built was destroyed in a moment
Maybe its true that it's all predetermined
Maybe it's true that is runs in the family
Maybe the past correlates to the future
If not exactly then at least indirectly
But I like to think we're more than a program
Recursive functions repeating forever
Just like a highway with multiple exits
If you miss yours you just can just take the next one
We can remember the good times that we had
Analyze data - reverse engineer it
Back to a save state before it all went bad
And laugh at ourselves like "what the hell were we thinking"
Discard the days that consist of the same thing
Wasting our time on the mundane and boring
Fix all the bugs and rewrite the ending
Where you slammed the door without even a last goodbye
Recursive functions
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Recursive functions repeating forever
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Recursive functions
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Recursive functions
Recursive functions repeating forever
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