Suicidal Thoughts

By Curtis Dwayne

On NUMB SEN6E

Released on January 8, 2018

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[Verse 1]

Verse 2, the intention to talk is mine

Hope Biggie smokes in heaven feeling fine

I agitate to kill myself, if possible right now

People shocked wonder why and how?

Too young to set a end, too broken to carry on

In this fake world where i don’t belong

Sick of the lies, more sick to pretend

Sick of all problems, everything i invent

If i die tonight, believe you won’t miss me

Mother, the only woman truly loved to kiss me

Father a failure, i’m walk on his way

Demons in my head and i’m too weak to slay

My whole life i wanted to be good

No role models ever left the hood

A hopeless person, nothing to live for

Cold Iron to my head, splash my problems on the floor

It’s hard to believe in myself, to believe i’m not able

Fearless is my face, but my confidence unstable

Talentless piece of shit, only thing i did was to judge

Worst teenage years, the negativity was too much

In my life, i wished the best for my people

Sadly the intentions were rarely equal

Love should be warm, love makes me cry

Fuck positivity motherfucker, tonight i want to die

The habit to create my own darkness

After that to sink in sadness

It's an addiction, more than a fucking madness

Obsessive disorder, a mind that always thinks

The Captian of a ship, i'm no sailor the ship sinks

The guise of a eagle, i'm blessed with dark wings

In this life, theres a lot to gain, so i have to maintain

Let nicotine calm my brain, alcohol rushes through my veins

I fly higher than planes, this process break the chains

I'm a painter, look a real trouble inventor

Paint a ugly drawing, make all logic surrender

Mirrors say kill the bitch inside, end her

See a potenial depression, let's fucking enter

Antisocial character, weak people stressin' me bad

Mostly they are not around, this makes me glad

Relationships, something clearly i never had

Give me some books, and please give me a cat

Give me some drinks and a bad bitch to chat


[Outro]

Rest in Peace, Biggie Smalls, the greatest of all time

I hope we see us one day, this thought makes me smile...