Tame - Intellectual

I'm no longer simple enough to write like this

My words are tripping and I force feed situations in spite of it

I know I'm not getting calmer

It must be a loss of talent

An ugly ego eating an inner child

That's trying to find a balance

I keep growing

I keep growing into something

Older and loving less, an embarrassment

Playing in with what I'm crumbling

I watch, you don't talk much, I know it

It's numbing

Argued meanings into human reactions

But this shit isn't funny

It's falling

Like how solid my misplacement is

Or distaste in arrangements

Placed onto faces with

Sincerity scraped too thin to balance out expression

Obviously awkward and self respect, an emotional look of guessing

And you have the nerve to judge me

Looking past your imperfections

I'm tired

You don't grow up, you grow old and continue to be tested

It taught me there's nothing left to learn

Perfect grammar or misspelled words

Your paper will still burn

My heart won't stop skipping

You'll never start seeing

You'll continue to think I'm losing it

I'll question my own meaning

You'll start to think I'm crazy

This pain will never leave my chest

I'll die surrounded by gluttony and friends who've left

Nothing's forever

So it feels strange

You see there's more here than anger

Miscommunication and gluttony

Distancing self is more comforting

Catching parts of me tumbling

Chin on calloused palms wondering

It's this or death?

Maybe my friends should have left

All these pieces are the same

Muffled face, screaming you shouldn't be close to me

I'm hungry

Never bare teeth, the war resolving is homely

I'm a horrible expression to control, who wish hope on nobody

Reprising thoughts of red like this is goin' to my head

They said they want a poet

They said they want a rapper

They said I haven't proven I'm either

I say I don't have to

Nothing left to judge me but insecurities and shame

Lust, excuses, or blame

They want me tame

Check

Check, check, check

Check, check ,check

This is a face and the friend's cry when it makes you

Frown and smile, aggression breaks and I hate you

Life is pass dumb and deaf, so what you regret to see

Fight how you want motherfucker, you'll never be next to me

I hate this plain and groups blend and challenge argue pain

Sighing, narcissistic, crumbling I remove my name

Hate in bones and ache until I set you free

Anger's a gift but it seem you'll never let me be

Basic and wanting argued expression and bluffing

Better than what's left, the pressure get it off my chest

Judging and comforting drooling marching toward a bleed

I'm a challenging glutton, my knuckles'll force my greed

Like kill them all, let no one break skin

Regret is on me

I let them live and smiles

They swarm me, they want to argue peace

Pause and fake senses, insecurities, shame

Lust, excuses, blame

They want me tame

They want me

You'll never see inside this

Untame

Believe in a lesson

Gaining more popularity

Ugly power and aggression

Face arranging same patterns

Too familiar and testing

In judgement listening and jaded watch

Thinking of less than [?]

I'm getting too hurtful and hungry

Uninspired in my guesses

Breaking in everyone's weakness

But [?] is allowed to question

Mistake and insecurity

Stop analyzing my sentence

Slaving my hard, I'm sleepless and strained

Hatred confessing

You'll never see me smile again

Not like i once was

Childish friendship ending in intrusive laughter

After enough

It's bringing you down ma

You sound so drained

Unwilling to trust, and speaking

It's sick, enslaved

And I remembering how to say it

I'm losing faith in friendships

Family and fans, strangers stressed measuring tension

You're liers you made me crazy

No one can promise

Breaking my try

Fine then let's just be honest

You think you want a poet, or affection

But after, you'll eat any weakness

Or anger and hate laughter

I'll take it

My face will serve as home for blame and hatred

Did not shown a lone expression

Evil is an impatience

I'm wasting

Chest pains and stressed

Stare anxious, speak hardly

Waking a mess, ugly with frustration

Nothing left to give

All this anger and sentence

Crumbling in confusion

Broke, sick of alcohol and friendships

You're basic, I'm crazy

Bear arms and box reality

Can't feel conscious with complements

Still faulting in honesty

Faking in weakness, being judged in and out

Scars on a naked body, standing with open mouths

So angry it numbs me

So aggressive with how

They want me to wither

Don't let yourself wither now

Faith, friendships, hatred, pain

Lust, excuses, shame

They want me tame

Tame