[Verse 1]

It's only days 'till we miss him

And I've learned to cope

By dismissing a night

With alcohol and paper, alone

I'm too self-aware

Before we cared I should have known

That I'd kill myself in thought

Any mistake I'd own

I frame it

Every picture

No smile on my face

Missed calls, so anxious

That I'd be judged in my ways

Who you told or not

How they see that I'm sour

To break all these friendships

Feeling viewed as a coward

And I'm not crazy

I'm feel its faults on itself

To say it sound try enough

To hold a guard on all else

So resentment is a quilt

We stitch anxious with memories

With a grudge we held at close to comfort acting as enemies

And I hate it

This monster's face I play in

Scare the one thing I love

Squeezing 'til suffocation

Til I'm sorry as a person

Left with nothing to prove

But a chest filled with pain again

And regret for loving you

[Chorus]

Hello

How are you doing?

Hope you're doing well

Hello

How are you doing?

I'm doing better now

Right

[Verse 2]

I may be a bitter man

It's probably better you left

If you could only see me now

How I handle the stress

I'm a shell

Nothing left to prove and still viewed in hate

With a [?] someone like you

Personified by your face

And I'm taking flak

For everything that I could have had

And blame myself

Forgive you easily

That memory and pass

But a grudge says wait

OCD counts the days

Anxiety makes me pay

And saying I'd crack from the weight

I wanna say stay

But it's not that easy

The damage is too deep for you to forgive

These chains won't free me

I see myself as sick

And don't speak or sleep, wide eyed

Unique and overanalyzing

It's all the same, why try

I'm tripping

Past years I can't grasp, the days

Blurred into weeks trying to sleep

Counting new lines on my face

Any mirror, I stay silent

They all fog when I say hope

Chose to trace your finger makes

Spelling out hate

And I read alone

[Chorus]

How are you doing?

Hope you're doing well

Aha

Hello

How are you doing?

Are you still bitter now?

[Verse 3]

Every moment we hush

Any touch to remember

To answer you honestly

I could be doing much better

But I'm at home

This anger is a bulk that always carried me

It forms a blank at the wall with weight of me bury me

A challenge is my air

My blood, palms, and breath

Next to cold sheets and sweat, awake

Losing what's left

Becomes a blur

I fight the difference analyzing fur

With a hold that only you can piece

But you're lost in my words

It's all downhill from here

And we both know it

For me at least with [?]

But in poems you start showing

This is laughable, comets

Complements, act heroic

Within odds in tied with tippy-toe

I crash through, I'm going

Possessive

That passion turned, so I sit alone

Seeing your question of hate

Pretending why I don't know

Reading your message, debating

How to reply, but it's [?]

No more testing

This will be my last goodbye

To your hello