I wrote this thinking of Dessa, because it was her favorite

I hold my grudge against you and everyone else, because while I say this

There's a chance your touch could be causing her warmth and while I'm torn

I try to stay sane but the thoughts where I fault in anger speak in my mind and these words are still born

All the parents say and your friends may take these sides for sake of such an innocent face

But these boots won't shake cause one day you'll get it, get it? Maybe I'll just have to wait

But you don't deserve her man. So many things to show the beauty she is

I'm torn apart, you're playing the field with no clue what a gift

You don't know how I strained my life to fix this. Defended her, stand strong and claim my faults in all acts

Or if she's asleep next to you, you whisper you love her, she will always say it back

Her favorite color green. Charlotte Russe her store. She'll smile for nothing and always love you more

And you can never win. I'd kill to see that again. Even men, I'll leave it at that

Any animal she'd love so selfless

Any hurt to her will leave you so helpless

Imma make it known

No embarrassment man cause I'm grown. What I want I know

The past mistakes might not have made a case of it

But I love her. It's making me say this shit

You better be sure

I can't help but make a fist. These feelings aren't forced

Luckily for you I'm a thoughtful man with source of sense and some self control

I just put it in song and sweat on the brink of sane and I'm getting close

I hope I can find some piece before I make a mistake of it

God help me. I'm depressed and an atheist. So pass the bottle with a face to rage against. With hate I could swallow you whole

I should stop before I say something I regret right? It's already a mess

But the thought of you touching flesh isn't something my mind is set to not stress and let go

Say it next time she's sleeping next to you. See if she repeats it in the dark

Then imagine my hate cause she said it to me for four years conscious when she meant it with her whole heart

Verse 2

I wrote this thinking of Dessa, because it was her favorite

I hold my grudge against you and everyone else, because while I say this

There's a chance your touch could be causing her warmth and while I'm torn

I try to stay sane but the thoughts where I fault in anger speak in my mind and these words are still born

It's hard to fake when I know your face and these friendships snake and then fade away

Just to fault in hate but to know you know how she tastes, makes this a dangerous place

Instead of wasting my breath and lips on specifics caused by what you did

I'mma get on some upbeat and brolic shit bitch cause you don't deserve the acknowledgment

But it's not that easy. My sanity fights my aggression with

Every turn I test myself in thought. Am I strong enough or not? Question is

I'm busy out of body. A crazy itch that can't hide my expression. Making fists

Straining to calm but shaking at risk to put my fist through that fucking face of his

I hope you're happy with someone easy. It's how you explained to be

Compare between us you made and I'm teething on the pain that's placed in mean

The worth a nice guy you graced relieving all past insecurities

Cause you want it easy, she just wants it easy, so have it easy, but I don't believe

Verse 3

I watched your eyes sweat out care. Dried by the hand that points in morals

To place a statement meant as unfair. No clue how much I adore you

To know another can touch you bare and I have to refer to you in plural

That's my angel I found her in Bel Air Adam, find your own in Laurel

I've made mistakes of my own and claimed. With friends to judge now and all explained

You pass the truth until it twists and blame is a place for you all to question my name

Guilty looks now in all I promise. Watch you entertain yourself in gossip

To say they don't lie is a failing nonsense, bending the truth is still dishonest

So brave to speak when I'm not around but you fold in front, so you can hear me now

If kind is weak then feel me out. Alone I speak with no foot in mouth

And I know this won't make me any friends. Exploits my pain in every hymn

I write and shake with sweaty skin. Hands release hate through my pen

The pressure breaks tips in all my tension. Imagine your face in every sentence

I get more personal the more I mention. Immortalize you on my record

This hate gone numb I look and listen. You've touched her skin I've seen the pictures

Spoke all day, my eyes have witnessed. You place your hands and I'll show you sickness