I sit back and ponder

This happens often, I think that I must be a mishap, a fault, a mismatch in these times but

Never been a misanthrope but I'm sick and exhausted of being trapped between these demons and monsters

Can't really withstand this nonsense

There's a dim chance of light

But this thing i can promise there's a pitch black tomorrow

How do you survive in a fish tank of piranhas?

How do you bring back what's gone, or revamp a flower

Things just change in a quick flash

If the beat bangs the song is kick ass and bonkers

Rap had king status now these rapper tryna bitch slap the genrе

World runs on reacts and follows

Ain't no rehab once you dеtach from the conscience

As I reminisce about the past and all that isn't

Man back then it was different

Hanging out with my friends, we'd laugh along and meet up

Last time it happened I can't even remember

Now Instagramming on the daily is what Captivates my mental

Caught up in the patterns hoping the algorithm's in our favour

Don't wanna swallow the bitter pill so i could tap into the matrix

With Every tap it's just more fakeness

Fallacies are celebrated

It's madness when I wake up

I hope my happiness is protected

And my sanity is stationed

Just facts you know my patience getting thinner and baggage getting bigger

Life's moving too fast no matching it's Momentum

We're divided by the schisms now more than ever

Government casually makes a lotta Calculated errors

Nature of the beast, they're savage nothing lesser

It ain't no passion for the betterment, they battle for the chair

Cuz you're the master if you reigning

Allegories no more selfless

People there's no equal they fucking with the natural selection

But What's a grain of sand to a cactus in the desert

It's hard to find a heart in the anatomy of the system

Reaction of a rebel is practically a death wish

Morality is tainted and the vanity's contagious

Makes a muhfucker crack under the pressure

Every other day our calibre's being tested

We trying find a passage or a ladder to the heaven

Half of us will never and half of us tryna Break in

Couple sins on my resume hope my application accepted

I lust for a lotta things and that attraction is too fatal

Gotta have the cake and eat it too my appetite is crazy

Amalgam is just dangerous

I done had a lotta chats back and forth with the Angels

Never found the answer to my question

I'm satisfied myself but how do I satisfy the devil?

Don't wanna be a disaster in the making

My ambition is better things but I'm barricaded by dread

Ghost of of my past I gotta move past it and just let go

Scars never heal can't patch em up with some makeup

But I gotta learn to carry em like some accolades and medals

Gotta make it a habit just to self love

Hope I learn from my mistake like hand delivered lessons

Keep my woman happier than ever stick to matrimony basics

Cuz you can't make a home with warmth of a Jacket or a sweater

Wanna see a better man when i pass by my reflection

Stay away from bullshit can't contaminate the vessel

Lotta shit on my mind too advanced for you to take in

I hope that down the line they fathom my creations

But what's the point of an enigma if you ain't misunderstanding the enigma

Made a promise to myself there's no going back and never let up

For any action I'm ready

Can't let my dreams turn to ashes and some embers

Took a lil time but I know i don't Have to be dependent

I do this for myself

I couldn't care less if you wanna bring your own boos that's a party invitation

Coming outta my cocoon you gon see the caterpillar changing

Nothing prettier than a butterfly dancing to its rhythm

My soul is a fragment of a prism

I'm a masterpiece in the making