Watching the waves escape to find their ending

Standing above in expectation

Fighting the horror to acquaint with them

Passionate lights I've lit from precious moments

Only to dwindle to a headstone

How do the moments make you more a man

Life escapes before you know

Tell me what I have to show

My name is unknown

What good are deeds when in the end you're alone

I gave all I am

No parades and no symphonies

To see a smile was worth the whilе for me

I healed souls that bleed

I fought all my days

Whilе my comrades had fame

Contribution with no credit to my name

Well we all die the same

Why am I crying

Would it only take a taste

The music from below screams it's too late

I lived a million lives and still don't know me

This worthless prophet tells his fables

How does living make you more of a man

I've seen time

Have I wasted mine

What’s worth mean before I die?

Days slipped away

Would fame have been a mistake

Surreal regret as I feel my conscience fading

I'm too numb to keep on waiting

Would fame have been a mistake

Given all to others only to be broken down

Anxiety grinding me

Doubled over hiding

The sorrow seethes consuming me

Feed my self-deriding

Knock me out, put me to sleep

No more pull tonight

End this

Twisted inside by the choice

We decide

All our lives

Why not end repetition

Imagine a world

With no imagining

Pain is volition

Seeking the void

So I avoid

Every fucking decision

The Final Decision to take me away

Take me to my grave

Pain slips away

When you suddenly kill your mistakes

My deeds were a lie

My meaning for dying, my willing to die

Why breathe air when the river's below

My last decision

All the the lights casting shadows that grow

Light creates my flight

Flying, I'm falling

What rush from the last of air

Hear all them calling

The famed and broken

Beggars and heirs

Freed from my ground

Terminal velocity is loud

Now my body and soul have found common ground

Given all away

Would fame have been a mistake

Surreal regret as I feel my conscience fading

Not much longer to be waiting

This may have been a mistake

Done with serving others only to be broken

Smashing into the void

Embrace the water's silence

Making my Final Choice

My peaceful sleep in violence

Feeling my lungs await their final ending

Questioning all my expectation my pain

Fought for the horror breathing water cold

All of my life I fought to keep them living

Only to bite the bullet by my envy

I'm trading nothing for my nothingness

I made a mistake

One of a million

The drowning makes me shake

I love and I hate them

I'm doubting why I came

I came here to leave them

Someone knows my name

But the wrong ones proclaimed it

Why am I dying

I've only needed peace and reason

The music of life cries

The water pulls me in

But my life has just began

I see now the depths of pain

I know now someone knows my name

Claw for life as I feel my conscience fading

There's no time to keep on waiting

Pain slips away

When I breathe life once again

A real regret to deny those I was saving

All my life is meant for saving

Resting upon the shore

I clear my lungs of anger

Open my eyes to more

Than living as a stranger