[Intro]

Eyes have been affixed upon the ceiling for a minute

I can tell you're acting different

Is it me?

Or just the distance?

Cause I moved across the country

Trying to run from who I was

And now reduced myself to nothing

In hopes of maybe feeling something

Now I'm -

Lost

Maybe I should take a step back

I've been killing myself

At what cost?

I've been working like a dog

Got it from my dad

Do it for my mom

I need to reach out

Ever since I left home

Me and my brotha don't talk

I've been acting like a cunt

But I'm always gonna blame it on a rut

[Chorus]

Lying awake

Feeling like my synapses are setting ablaze

Falling out of love with everything that I create

I take one step forward just to fall onto my face

I don't believe I can be saved

[Verse]

I'm lost and so conflicted

This loneliness is sinking

The only thing I have consistent

In my life's addiction

Thought I lost my mind

But I lost my attentiveness

I made you cry

Because I swore this time would be different

These razor blades are bloody

Looks like my sleeves are bleeding

I'm fucking lost

Lookin to god trying to fix this feeling

These thoughts don't come in waves

Rather shower me lightly

They're so seductive in nature

It's like they're tryna invite me

I'm so indecisive

I just don't know what I want

And I've got zero restraint

I just don't know when to stop

If you give me an escape

Then I'll give you what you want

But you keep tearing me down

I think I've given enough

I do this shit to myself

I'm growing sick and deranged

I've spent 20 whole years slowly rotting my brain

The body will follow

Cut off the head of the snake

I wanna kill myself

But I don't have what it takes

[Chorus]

Lying awake

Feeling like my synapses are setting ablaze

Falling out of love with everything that I create

I take one step forward just to fall onto my face

I don't believe I can be saved