If I Change It - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

I close my eyes it's still as real as the day that I arrived

I still hear the noise and feel the fight inside

Stuck in the dark fighting for the light

Funny how it seems I fight for everyone but me

How long's it gonna take for me to see

I'm the only one that can set me free

I know it's gonna pass but it's still a burden on my soul

Cause everything I saw it left me with a hole

That no matter what I do I just can't fill

The memories that I carry are like medals on my chest

One foot in the future one foot in thе past

And with everything I do now I confess

It's only gonna changе if I change it

Coming home didn't really feel like coming home

A husband, father, son and still alone

Looking for the life I used to know

But here I am in my thoughts I know I've let the enemy in

But I'll be damned now if I'm gonna let 'em win

14 years now and this is where it ends and hope begins

I know it's gonna pass but it's still a burden on my soul

But everything I saw it left me with a hole

That no matter what I do I just can't fill

The memories that I carry are like medals on my chest

One foot in the future one foot in the past

And with everything I do now I confess

It's only gonna change if I change it

I was chasing down the reaper but he just ran from me

Prisoner to a war never found the enemy

Alone here with my thoughts scribbled on this page

I finally found the key to unlock this cage

I know it's gonna pass but it's still a burden on my soul

But everything I saw it left me with a hole

That no matter what I do I just can't fill

The memories that I carry are like medals on my chest

One foot in the future one foot in the past

And with everything I do now I confess

It's only gonna change if I change it

If I change it