I’ve retraced steps

They led me to where we first met

And you taste like pine and move just like a river

Where your leaves have all turned red

And you feel like hollowed out memories

I’ve tried to burn before

You said, “No one else could love me like you do right now."

Well, I’m giving up, and I'm finding out

That happiness is not what I’d expected

And loneliness is more than a mistake

Maybe it’s okay if I am both of them at once

I’ve learned a lot but I don’t understand

How hearts can hold such sorrow and joy all at once

And I’ll never understand the balance or the cure

But I’m listening close to the words of my mother now

Yeah, I'm listening close to the words of my mother now

There are oceans with no bottom that we all drown in

Foaming with memories

And the ships we claim to have mastered have no captain

And lay shattered on the beach

And your teeth are sugar cubes ever dissolving

In this endless sea of caffeine conversation

That leaves us stranded

And wondering if it’s really true

That joy is just a word that we have painted

To compliment our fragile fate

On concrete monuments that only poor men seek

Well, I’ve learned a lot or not enough to know

When life has knocked me down

To dig trenches in the dirt

And I’ll fight like hell to free myself

From shackles of my fear

Or learn to love them

But hate who I’ve become

Or learn to love them

But hate who I've become

Oh, I'll hate

Oh, I'll hate who I've become