I was a good kid, fast forward 1987
On the rooftop, lickin' gunshots up at heaven
1988, I’m in the earth, stuck in a curse
The streets was crazy, every week, a thug in a hearse
Went to Job Corps, Delaware Valley, they kicked me out
When to my Mom's house, she kicked me out, my Aunt's house, she kicked out
F the world, I’m hustling but I'm small time
Selling crack all day, sniffing coke all night
Alcohol to numb the pain, claiming that I love the game
How I'm living, soon I'll catch a slug in the brain
I was foul and perverted
I rooted for the bad guys and cheered when the cop got murdered
Now I'm 19, 1989
My main Dre kept a 4-5
Me, I ran around with the baby nine 380
And through the grapevine lately
I'm hearing cats wanna blaze me
I'm going all out baby
Living ungodly is bad for your health
I was angry at the world
When I really shoulda been mad at myself
I made it rougher then it had to be
So many things, I never had to see
I never knew that Christ had the key
To my soul's salvation and rhyme control
He set me free from the mind control
I was a lost soul reppin’ the night
Till the Lord Jesus Christ stepped in and said, Let there be light
Sneaker money, refer money
At the hotel, freak a honey
She sleep, I sneak her money then I leave the honey
Caught her for 1500, I’m ghost
Time she wake up, I'm in the store, trying on new clothes
In between robberies, I read Astrology
And study how Plato and Socrates stole Philosophy
After some of my wildest capers
Catch me reading Donald Goines, Na’im Akbar and the Yssis papers
Young, black and intelligent
My knowledge was irrelevant
It's like I read my books for the hell of it
I was full of wisdom and history
But sin had a grip on me
It's called the mystery of iniquity (2 Thessalonians 2:7)
I was full of hate and fear
Thought the Bible was a lie
Psalm 46 was written by Shakespeare
It wasn't my fault, the cards I was dealt
But it was my fault, I wouldn’t go to God for help
Like Randy Crawford, I played the street life
Packing a gun, stacking my ones
Jack of all trade, master of none
Doing all type of crime, facing all kind of time, I was blind
Lord, You got to show me a sign
Fighting in clubs, smoking marijuana like Redman
My moms kicked me out because I did what I want ta'
I even had legal jobs, but they worked me to death for no pay
So frustrated, had to leave them jobs
Dishwasher, mail room, loading trucks
Construction, security guard, all types of stuff
I hit an all-time low, nobody cared what I had to say
Except my main man Ron Roach
Just as sure as my name's Corey
Jesus Saves, but that's another song and a long story
The Lord will get your life in order
So when you see the Cross
Remember that blood run thicker than water