[Verse 1]

My face has had more hits than MySpace

That's why my nose is crooked and leans sideways

All because I'm hard headed

Used to be inside the bar gettin' hard liquor

Just maxin' my card limit

Was missin' my ex girlfriend and it

Felt like the world ended

Started blackin' out, the days of when I'd hurl, finished

So in Colorado and Kansas

I got jumped cause my dumbass had swolled bottles of Xanax

Quit drinkin' and takin' pills and all those problems would vanish

That's what happened with Icon but I won't argue semantics

In '09, I've dealt with way too many natural losses

In March, my new girl dumped me

Fuck it, I'm past it, I'll chalk it

Then just when I was able to laugh it off, nauseous

Last May, my mom passed away from natural causes

Bad enough in June all month I'm reminded my dad's gone all day

Now what, I gotta write a song called May?

Guess that's life a bigger problem, just another day

I lost my dad the month of Father's Day

My mom the month of Mother's Day

Now grandpa's sick, I dont know what the fuck to say

[Hook]

I step off stage and I'm the only one

Mom and pops had an only son

No fans, just a man findin' freedom in truth

Spend my soul in a confession booth

[Verse 2]

I am a sinner saved by the grace of God

At 31 years of age, countless tears are on my face

How am I here, I'm amazed; I've been scraped and scared

I lost both parents, but hey, pray both spirits are safe

I hope they are okay but God's still got my sister and grandparents

But grandpa's got cancer and I can't bare it

They say the chemo's shrinken it, can't think of it not workin'

They say meds help his pain, but of his brain, I'm not certain

It's been four months without my best friend (mom)

My mom was always in my corner, even when I was arrested

Even, when I was in the wrong she'd defend me

But she's with God now believe you me, I'm green with envy (of both)

I can't believe my life some times, I need to write some rhymes

Keeps me sane when everything else isn't quite sublime

My sweet mother used to keep to me in line

Any women who reminds me of her I need by my side

They say seek and you'll find, Believe me if tried

And I won't stop

She can be my wife and I can be my own pops

Reincarnated, finished cheating

Never understood what gives men a reason for woman beating

Not saying that my dad did it

Maybe once he wasn't bad with it

But the one time he did it left a bad image

So I've learned from other peoples mistakes

And tried to learn from evil they've placed

On people I've faced

Yup, these are the breaks

But sometimes the parts are too broken

To grab a tube of super glue and stick the pieces in place (confessional)

[Hook]

[Verse 3]

Im trying to do with ought my selfish ways but

All I can think about is my self today

See I owe it to myself, but I dont know if I can go within my self

And make changes like sobering myself

The irony, The higher I can see, I'm lowering my health

Plus it's cold up in my cell and there's no one here to help

Yeah I served a little time for a DUI

See you drink, but they don't wanna see you drive

"Officer, they don't have slumber parties at the bar

So pardon me if rum and Bacardi Breezer is in my car"

And I can make claims that alcohol isn't my main thing

Yet I'm the one sitting with lemon squeezed in my gray drink

Fuck, I had a stressful year

Quite a eventful and regretful year

I had to shed some tears

I had to grab some liquor, I had to get some beer

To get some clear thoughts to fuckin get me here

Hit this fork in the road; Lookin' back losing all that I know

And then lookin' forward, what more do I know?

I know pain-addiction-pain-death-pain

Took the right path slowed down and said bye to the left lane

Cause life in the fast lane was stifle and mad strange

Vicodin mad canes, try to lighten my past pains

But my habits could end my life in a bad way