Verse 1 (Jae Skeese):

Nowadays i only go where i get celebrated

Some folks just wanna break me down that left me decimated

All my symptoms stress related

Anxiety paranoia and hyperventilation

Not too many i can count on if i had to estimate it

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Nowadays i only go where i get celebrated

Some folks just wanna break me down that left me decimated

All my symptoms stress related

Anxiety paranoia and hyperventilation

Not too many i can count on if i had to estimate it

If you love me how could you question my dedication

Im growing while you stuck stationary as vegetation

But you my people could never do defecation

Change requires elevation in between our wavelengths and separation

I wanna bring you up thats just to tee you up

Like a driver on the green but not the type to speed you up

I wanna get you past the rough

Thats a concept im not really sure you grasp enough

Resentment steps in when you ain't moving past your grudge

Its foolish thats because you setting yourself up

Like you movin packs and drugs ina trap

Cuz i got your best interests at heart

I always had a coat on but for you i set to defrost

Verse 2 (Conway The Machine):

I been sitting quietly in the back on some out of sight out of mind shit

Thats the only time i can finally get to relax

My zone and my piece of mind i just been tryna get it back

Its people that say they love me but entitlement attached

And jealousy, same people that been tryna hit my jack

But technically really just dont have time to hit em back

And i ain't tryna hit you back dont got time to really chat

Unless its valuable to this empire i built from scratch

It was people like Nas that inspired me in fact

That grimy shit is back

And you have me to thank entirely for that

Contemplating retirement from rap

Turnin down drinks tryna keep my sobriety intact

Im lighting up back to back

These anxiety attacks and depression i been fighting got me fighting like ???

Sometimes i struggle acknowledging the shit i lack

I dont wanna do no interviews why would you even ask

Look, this paralysis in my face im still not comfy with

And plus they usually asking some dummy shit

Cameras in my face, they post it on they pages

And people all in the comments damn what happened to his face

Thats why i just stay away

Its annoying, i dont wanna get noticed

Direct eye contact, i avoid it

Go ahead and crack your little jokes bet you enjoy it

Yous a funny guy but you still in line for unemployment

Know whats ironic i actually had talks

About this possibly happening but fuck what people thought

I still remember that call told my bro i quit therapy

He was like yea right n fuck is you tellin me you trippin

You mean its a procedure that can fix it

Had your shit back looking normal and you tellin me you didn't

Brodie i know you gifted but what if you get lit and n clownin every minute

Thats gon have you feeling twisted

But im gon support you regardless your decision

Lookin back thats exactly what got me in this position being different