Maniac

By conscience

Released on March 12, 2021

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[Verse 1]

This is like the fifth time we broke up

Ask me "What's wrong?", I would tell you, but I'll choke up

They tell me she ain't good for me, "It's best you let her go, son"

But they don't really know us

Lord knows how many times I've cried up on the sofa

Ever since the day we met, how many tears my pillow's soaked up

A house, kids, you know that dream we always spoke of?

Is now a nightmare, and I still haven't woke up!

I put you first, even through the times when it hurt

That time you cheated, you cried and pleaded, "We could still make it work!"

I forgave you knowing damn well you still would go do your dirt

Sure enough, forgiveness started feeling like it's a curse

I pushed away my family, my friends, I would blow up

If they said that you were bad for me to them

Feel my sanity is thin, so many cracks in me within

But when I leave, you pull me right back in


[Chorus]

And I know that you'll break me again

I'm pretty sure I know how this ends

You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh

What do you want from me?

I can't believe you made me believe

Believing you I'm all that you need

You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh

What do you want from me?

What do you want from me?


[Verse 2]

I pick up the pieces when I should drop it and leave it

And I know damn well, but somehow I find a reason

To keep you here in my life, put our love on ice

Take that knife out my back and someday make you my wife

I know with love comes a fight, but I'm battered and bruised

And I've been left in a ditch without my wallet or shoes

My friends think that I'm stupid, they think I love the abuse

And honestly, I can't say 'cause I'm fucking confused!

Do I have something to prove? Tell me, what is the use?

Why have I always defended you and everything that you do?

I'd blame it all on myself, I deserve what you put me through

Excuses I made for you convinced me that that's the truth

I give my heart, you drop it, pick it back up, and you throw it

Give it back, you stomp it, need to stop, but I don't know when

I don't know when

You've broken me


[Chorus]

And I know that you'll break me again

I'm pretty sure I know how this ends

You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh

What do you want from me?

I can't believe you made me believe

Believing you I'm all that you need

You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh

What do you want from me?

What do you want from me?


[Bridge]

A little messed up, a little insecure

Just 'cause the way you look

You take the air right out my lungs

Call me out, the same old story

I say no, but girl you know me

I'm in love with the way you break my heart


[Chorus]

And I know that you'll break me again

I'm pretty sure I know how this ends

You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh

What do you want from me?

I can't believe you made me believe

Believing you I'm all that you need

You got me feeling like I'm a maniac, oh

What do you want from me?

What do you want from me?