forever dreaming

By Colliding With Mars

Released on June 19, 2018

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[Verse 1]

I always feel as though I'm nothing more than just a shell

These incessant self-reminders make my life a living hell

If only I could be somebody else for just today

Maybe all of my small insecurities would slip away

I could analyze and pick apart what makes me who I am

Then I’ll reconstruct the good in me and make a better man

Maybe one who isn't lazy or as scatterbrained at that

Or maybe I'll just sit alone and continue being sad

Complacency is key if you should recreate the past

First, you start with all your mistakes

Followed suit with bitter laughs

Once you’ve successfully stretched yourself beyond so very thin

You can reap the seed you sow and never be comfortable and your own skin


[Bridge]

I know that you'll never hear this but I'm sorry for the person that I used to be

I'd like to think I've changed (I'd like to think I've changed)

I'd like to think I’ve changed (I’d like to think I've changed)


[Hook]

I look like hell

I feel like hell

Jesus, I should be in hell

I look like hell

I feel like hell

Jesus, I should be in hell


[Verse 2]

I wake to see that my friends aren’t talking anymore

It's insatiable, my longing to just be with them once more

But times will change, it's silly to think friends will stick around

Times will change it's silly to think friends will stick around

I always feel as though it’s like I'm running from the past

My imaginative outbursts, killing kings with sleight of hand

The bridges I have burned from all the shitty things I did

But now I know I've made my bed and I'm the one who lies in it


[Bridge]

I'm sorry for the person that I used to be

I'd like to think I've changed (I'd like to think I've changed)

But the person that I used to be has come back to kill me


[Hook]

I look like hell

I feel like hell

Jesus, I should be in hell

I look like hell

I feel like hell

Jesus, I should be in hell

I look like hell

I feel like hell

Jesus, I should be in hell

I look like hell

I feel like hell

Jesus, I should be in hell