(Verse 1)

Here's another notion I've been holding for days

I'm told I shouldn't show it with my soul on display

But if I'm holding in the omens that I know to negate

I figure I'll explode when I go to debate

In order to prevent that foundation from cracking

Wiser instincts are to map out what's lacking

Formulate a gameplan, and record it in tracks

Then hold myself accountable to act like a man

Been thinking like one way, but acting like another

Now I don't show it

But shit at the moment

Is giving me hope to rise above it

It's basically I'm anxious, and I'm feeling distracted

By being focused I can know I'm equipped to combat this

Shouldn't be drinking, but this whiskey's nearly gone

Should be walking, 'stead of talking, but I'm lost up in this thought

It feels that by sitting here, I'm tripping these alarms

But walking forwards on is quickly bringing on a calm

(Chorus)

Thoughts are conflicting, with all of them shifting

It's hard to know what I fully am missing

Where I go I'm showing my better face

Trying to ensure there's no regrets in my wake

I take it day by day while I'm feeling the strain

I'm glad to have a fan base that can relate

When cracking a smile is strenuous

I'm feeling disingenuous

(Verse 2)

I'm starting to question the company I keep

It's a sign of the times, or it's a sign that I'm weak

If you bail or reschedule every time that we meet

Why do I stay silent if we collide in the street?

I'm friends with Jekyll and Hyde, well, that's what I think

You seem to transform every time that you drink

What you say, and what you do, are very rarely in sync

We're living different lives, without a sign of a link

Personalities have a way to show who they are

It takes a little while if they are broken or scarred

Now I'm sensing a darkness, in the corner of your heart

It feels like I should leave before that shadow gets sparked

Now I don't know if I'm changing, and I'm trying to project

But you used to be a friend that I would try to protect

At least now I recognize I wasted my breath

Cause you would brush off my advice, without a sign of respect

(Chorus)

Thoughts are conflicting, with all of them shifting

It's hard to know what I fully am missing

Where I go I'm showing my better face

Trying to ensure there's no regrets in my wake

I take it day by day while I'm feeling the strain

I'm glad to have a fan base that can relate

When cracking a smile is strenuous

I'm feeling disingenuous

(Verse 3)

Let's take a verse to rip some bars about booze

Down a shot, now I feel like I'm a confident dude

When I'm hanging with the boys, we'll have a bottle or two

Now I don't do this all the time, so I don't call it abuse

For six years, I was using beer as a crutch

It would help me man up when I was fearful as fuck

If I saw a pretty lady, I'd try to feel her up

But typically, I'd offer her my seat on the bus

And as I'm getting older, my body's getting weaker

My tolerance now, well, it's obviously meager

In the morning after, I'm dishonourably meaner

So why the fuck would I keep going, when I'm trying to be cleaner?

I've got other goals that are begging my attention

Constant self-improvement provides my direction

I drew out my plan, now it's time for execution

It goes without mention, but now it's time for me to prove it

(Chorus)

Thoughts are conflicting, with all of them shifting

It's hard to know what I fully am missing

Where I go I'm showing my better face

Trying to ensure there's no regrets in my wake

I take it day by day while I'm feeling the strain

I'm glad to have a fan base that can relate

When cracking a smile is strenuous

I'm feeling disingenuous