[Verse]

Now it's been a few months, but I made a decision that I regret

I hurt the ones I love and now I'm losing respect

And if I never get to justify the things in my head

You might accept my flaws, but then reject what I said

Did you listen to my words? Did you look at what I did?

Will I ever get to work it out, repenting of my sins?

I've been going through this ocean, too concerned with the wind

Always writing out my life, maybe God has got a pen

I'm addressing what I show, made a point to keep it close

Mamma always told me this was "nothing I should know"

I'm tryna stay committed to the passion I behold

But I'm fighting with myself every day for control

Man I'm thinking 'bout the future, what's to come for my life?

Will the girl I really love be the one I call my wife?

Or will it fall apart like the previous five?

Will I end up all alone with an attempted suicide?

I've been trying for the longest, maybe I can steal the rain

Cause it's flooding my mind with memories I can't erase

I don't want to have to think about the constant mistakes

I only blame my self, I only feel my shame

What if I told you I was broken from a really young age?

And they told me I should trust them, that everything was okay

That I did a few things that keep me living in pain

It's been 18 years and I don't know how to change

I haven't slept in a week, I haven't bothered to eat

I've had my brain clogged up with these emotional dreams

And now, everybody's asking me the questions I don't need

"what your plan?" "what's next?" "do this", I can't breathe

I've been learning how to swim but I'm stuck in the flow

Held captive by my thoughts, if I bless the broken road

Tryna keep it on the low, for the sake of what I know, never fold

Been distracted for too long, take me home, yuh

[Outro]

Been distracted for too long, take me home

Been distracted for too long