I kind of feel like I'm caught in a loop

Living everyday just like déjà vu

I can't even tell if I'm spiraling down

Or if I took the jump and finally hit the ground

Am I rolling in the grave?

Tossing and turning in this endless sleep

Waiting for someone to wake me up

Dead and seeing through this construct

That I've built in my mind

Eternally drifting in time

None of this makes sense to me anymore

I'm playing both sides in the endless war in my mind

So I tear at my skin and dig to my heart

Just to let my soul out of the dark

For a minute just to feel like I'm human

Oh God, I'm so broken

I need to wake up

I can't deal with this existential nightmare anymore

I can't live in this dream

The cracks are too vivid

Just too extreme

I stared into the abyss

I fell in love with the nothingness

The nothingness

I feel like I'm Jesus, I feel like I'm a saint

Time traveling, absent, just negative space

All these warning signs I'm going insane

I'm going insane, I'm going in-

With each breath I take, my lungs collapse and come alive again

Eternally resurrecting this existential and irrational action

Serrated and torn

Skin pulled tight and worn

Like a shape-shifting masquerade in an endlessly self-harming state

God's tongue is twitching again

So fragmented, I'm barely a man

For I was lost before I even could stand

Understand I've tried my best to make these amends

Never ending

Oh God, please pull me out

I kind of feel like I'm caught in a loop

Living everyday just like déjà vu

I kind of feel like I'm caught in a loop

Living everyday just like déjà vu