Counting Back from 13 - Intellectual

What the fuck

Do you want me to do

I'm in love

Still in love with you

I take drugs

Just to make it through

Nights I

I'm alone without you by my side

I try to be fine but I'm not

Seeing the angles that got you so tangled, my god

Now you're screaming in my face and you're slamming the door

Just to come back in to argue some more

And collect everything except for me

[Chorus]

So now I'm counting back from 13

Trying to stay calm and breathe

And I'm counting back from 13

Trying to stay calm and breathe

"I am sick! I have sickness all around me!

Fucking call me lady?

Shame on you! Shame on you!

Shame on both of you!

Suck my dick!"

Have I become

A caricature of

What I once was

A buffoon trying to prove

He can still love

But not sure that is true

I've been sewn shut

Just wandering without you by my side

I try to be fine but I'm not

And most of the time I feel like this heart just might stop

You know that I've told you every word before

And I'm getting too old for waking up alone

Believe me and finally leave me, let me be

So I'm counting back from 13

Trying to stay calm and breathe

I'm counting back from 13

Trying to stay calm and breathe