Back Then - Intellectual

[Intro: CMHD]

Just been a really big mixture of good stuff and bad stuff I reckon

But I got a saying, that I came up with this year

Life is really shit, but at the same time it's fucking amazing

So basically it’s alright… yeah

Just call me ghandi mate haha

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Back then everything was so different

I feel i need to explain it all on this 1 beat so this tunes significant

You see nowadays everything's so stressed out

Everything's so bad in this situation

They say students have more stress than a 1950’s mental home patient

But I try to stay calm, Won't see a single sweat on my palms

I'm not the one to roll deep with arms but don't think I can't get aggressive

Man I don't even know what it is about me people pissing me off it's just so excessive

True say this year I've been more conscious of the fakes and the snakes

But I wish It could change to back then

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Twenty-seventeen, what’s new?

Year of the real?, not a clue

They say twenty-seventeen’s the year of the real

But I haven't see much change what’s the big deal?

But anyway let's take it back to about year 5

Everything felt good everything felt live

Then I got in a fight with a guy not sure what for

Pinching and punching yet none ended up on floor

Then couple weeks later I was in the school play

I still had bruises from the fight it was all cray

It was short sleeved bait so the teachers saw but I didn't know what to say

Like I said they asked but I didn't know what to say so I jus carried on anyway

Then the day after I got called into a meeting

They must of thought I was getting abused quite calm greeting

So I had to tell my teacher I got in a fight and the reason was ridiculous

And when I told him you just know I got all the blame out of mindlessness

But anyway onto my mental illness

As you can see this tunes more realness

I still remember the first time my Mum told me I was Autistic…

I felt a sigh of relief… Why?...

Cuz I always thought something was wrong with me and now I had confirmation

Nowadays when people use it as a joke you just know there’s frustration

Normally I'm fine but I saw 3 autistic jokes in one day and I just lost my mind!

I remember this one guy took the piss so I punched him in the back of the head

Even then they thought I took it too far yet if it was something else they would have wished him dead

And I'm not good at explaining how it feels yet people turn into journalists when they ask

To be honest the thought of explaining doesn't appeal so sometimes I wanna wear a mask

Makes me feel alienated...like I'm different…

Shit should be outdated But I stay in front

Won't get caught in a man hunt nah not for a stunt

Shut the fuck up about me acting blunt

Chatting endless amount of shit you fucking Cunt

As you can tell I have a slight anger issue

I was given some help but lost the leaflet I was issued

I've lost count of the amount of times I've slapped man for moving bait

I mean why do they say don't chat shit behind my back but get angry either way

It just doesn't make any sense for goodness sake

I'm starting to feel Fake love around me just like Drake

But shout out to the real people, Ben, Will, Mounir, Max, Joe

And sorry to those if you felt I've ever wronged or snaked yo

But just know I always tried to have good intentions

And that I've never wished for there to be any tensions

For example I say thank you to Will

For stopping me from getting kicked out of Lethal Bizzle

Thank you to Ben for keeping it real and sticking up for man

Even though sometimes when it was the other way round I couldn't keep to the plan

Thanks to Mounir for keeping it real even though I've only known you for nearly 2 years

Never ever have I heard you chatting shit behind my back so for that I say cheers

I also need to big up Max for always having my back

And how could I forget Joe, well you should already know

I've never really opened up about my Autism to people I don't know

I did a Facebook post once but got the piss taken out of how low can they go

But to be fair the words I used in the post were kind of cringe

However I haven't really obsessed on it nah not binge

On a real though I gotta thank Will and Sam for getting me into YouTube

On a real though I gotta thank Josh and Big Chris for getting me into Music

Because if it wasn't for those things then my life would be a lot different

Hell I could have been mute so I know it's significant I'm not ignorant

Because there's one thing people miss out and that's it effect everyone differently

And before I tried out music or video making I was shy as fuck, consequently

I don't think of myself as great which is why I say don't get irrate

But what's important is that I enjoy it so I might toy with it

To get different results…

So to be honest nowadays I couldn't give a fuck about any of your insults...

[Skit: CMHD]

I'm just so tired you know what I mean?

These past 3 years have drained me completely

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