[Intro]

I'ma let the sky fall

Die here in my fast life for a story

I'ma go starve myself fighting

Victim to no guts no glory

Find that I love sighing, trying

Beating till my fists are gory

Mama's asking why I do this

All I can tell her's I'm sorry

[Hook]

Your boy is an addict

Don't care bout what's lavish

Throw money in lava to make me a savage

Maybe it's all of the things that my dad did

He came up from nothing

While carrying some baggage

Maybe I'll manage

I don't really know if this started my end

Least I know it ain't boring

I pack onto it, guess I'm building a snowman

Keep the tape rolling

[Verse 1]

This is what I been on lately

Ain't nobody here that could fade me

Look at all the damage I’m making

I been throwing myself in the pits with the dogs waiting

If you tryna break me

Go face the hurt I'm facing

And boy I been aching

Stopped taking my pills just to make a damn statement

I can take the pain

Show them I ain't playing

Then waking one day with no chance but escaping

Begging I hold on so tightly

So none of my demons don't cross me

While I be losing myself in all that I'm learning

Don't anymore know anything for certain

It hurts like a bitch

See both sides like Chanel

I'm lost in oceans

And I did all of this

I flipped to the channel and got myself woven

[Bridge]

I'ma let the sky fall

Die here in my fast life for a story

I'ma go starve myself fighting

Victim to no guts no glory

Find that I love sighing, trying

Beating till my fists are gory

Mama's asking why I do this

All I can tell her's I'm sorry

[Hook]

Your boy is an addict

Don't care bout what's lavish

Throw money in lava to make me a savage

Maybe it's all of the things that my dad did

He came up from nothing

While carrying some baggage

Maybe I'll manage

I don't really know if this started my end

Least I know it ain't boring

I pack onto it, guess I'm building a snowman

Keep the tape rolling

[Verse 2]

You done tried to tell me what to feel like

Ain't nobody here but the real type

Hold the steering wheel still on your gaslights

Bitch I barely stop for red lights

These past nights I been making choices

Without looking in hindsight

Left my ex for my concert

I’m just tryna fly Concord

I ain’t felt you were on board

So I quit it like abort

And that’s funny that I say it

Because I was so stuck in

Not speaking what I’m thinking

I been making changes to what I am

My old teachers would never understand

Caz I was an A, B student

Coulda went AP if I wanted to do it

Now I’m making self-destructive improvements

Beautiful ruins