(Hook)

Life ain't really what it fucking seems like

I used to push through but now it feels like

There's nothing I can do

Trapped inside my mind yeah I'm stuck up in the loop

(Verse 1)

I forget who I am

To tell you the truth I don't feel like a man

I feel like a monster thats stuck in his head

I see no escape and I'm stuck where I am

Damn

This is where all of it ends

I'm airing it out and I'm getting on meds

Cuz I needed help

But the people I tell

Will tell me be happy it's all in my head

Do you know what it's like

Know what it's like

To wake up and panic you're scared for your life

So you reach for the meds but the meds isn't there

Cuz we took them away when you said you was aight, damn

Now I'm trapped in a fight

Looking for something I know I can't find

The map to be happy is so fucking close

I discovered the mountain but now I can't climb

And that is discouraging

But when I get pressure I'm flourishing

So maybe I'll take all the pain thats fighting my brain then bottle and bury it

Or maybe embrace and encourage it

Wait maybe I'll baby and nourish it

Wait maybe I'll make you a track about how I'm depressed and I bet you'll encourage it

Why do you people think different than me (different than me)

I need the cure my evil is pure don't listen to me (don't listen to me)

Sit in my room, stare at the roof that's just something I do (something I do)

Will tomorrow be different cuz lately I feel like I'm stuck in the loop

(Hook)

Life ain't really what it fucking seems like

I used to push through but now it feels like

There's nothing I can do

Trapped inside my mind yeah I'm stuck up in the loop

(Verse 2)

I forget who I am

To tell you the truth I don't feel like a man

I feel like a dude who's abusing his meds

To run from the issues he thinks that he has

Damn

This is where all of it ends

I'm standing my ground I ain't falling again

Cuz I need some help

I'm fighting myself

They tell me I'm crazy it's all in my head

What the fuck do you know about waking up sad

Making excuses for shit that you say

Youre stuck in a loop and you're scared to admit it

So nobody knows that you're living in pain

Man it's driving you crazy (driving you crazy)

Thinking 'bout what all these people would say

They'd say that you're living a dream and ain't really sad 'cuz you got a smile on your face

But they don't know 'bout all the trauma

No they dont know 'bout all your problems

And they don't know 'bout all the demons you dealing with

Dying when you was a toddler

Never had childhood only had fear

Talked to the reaper when you was a mere

4 years old, know what that did

It gave you depression when you was a kid

You try to be honest, telling the doctor 'bout what's on your mind (what's on your mind)

He said that its puberty give it a year and I bet you'll be fine (I bet you'll be fine)

You're 20 years old, you're feeling the same you got nothing to lose (nothing to lose)

Cuz life isn't bringing you joy, it's bringing you pain and you're stuck in the loop

(Hook)

Life ain't really what it fucking seems like

I used to push through but now it feels like

Theres nothing I can do

Trapped inside my mind yeah I'm stuck up in the loop

(Verse 3)

I forget who I am

To tell you the truth I don't feel like a man

I feel like a loser thats losing his friends

I push them away when I'm losing my head

Damn

This is where all of it ends

I'm speaking my mind and I'm plotting revenge

Cuz I needed help

And people could tell

But they went and left me to suffer again

But I know what it's like when you see it

Your homies are battling through

And you aren't a therapist so you pretend you don't notice

But they know you do

And now it's too awkward to even be with them

So you just leave 'em right out of the blue

Now they're all thinking that they was the reason but deep in your mind

You know it was you

So now you feel guilty for shit that you said

But you got that pride that you're bottling in

And you won't admit that you're killing your homie

You look to the side and forget it again

But every message he sends, a beep to your phone

But you never read it you leave it alone

Making him feel like he's living in hell so he's burning himself just to feel he's at home

These are the times where I like to reflect what I think of myself (I think of myself)

I act like a victim in most situations I think I need help (I need help)

Why are you hiding your feelings from them you got nothin' to prove (nothin' to prove)

So fuck all of that, just think of a way to get out of this loop