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I think about the life that I had

That shit was great even when I thought I had it so bad

I took my privelige for granted man that's makin' me sad

I had a house and a wife and shit I was a dad

We named her Lucy she was gorgeous I just loved to be around her

But the situation changed when the rumours came in louder

I was working out of state, putting food onto our counter

And apparently my wife was fuckin' dudes up on her counter

Yo at first I ain't believe it had no proof of the encounter

My family knew the truth but I was foolish and would vouch for

Her and say she didn't 'cause she loved me too much

And she would never do that we got Lucy and such

I guess that I was wrong 'cause when I finally left my job

I got a flight to be back home I was surpised at Lucy's mom

Bought my baby flowers and a couple of gifts

Nothin' big just some chocalates and a charm for her wrist

But when I open up the door I seen her down on her chest

With some random dude behind her I don't know who he is

Now it made a lot of sense she was cheatin' on me

I wasn't even mad at her I was mad I would believe

That she was innocent but I'm still giving her the benefit

A doubt because I truly love her I don't wanna end this shit

We tried to forget it but it's difficult to get a grip

And when I was at work she just left me man she took my kid

I tried to reason with her said that we could divorce

But can I see my baby girl? I need to teach her remorse

'Cause I know you won't do it you gon' turn my kid to a whore

Said I'm not allowed to see her so I took her to court

The judgde told me there's a law that if the kid's really yours

You have the right to see them and be a parent and I was sure

I was the father so I took a test with Lucy to be

Involved with her but it turns out that Lucy ain't me

And that's okay I love her to death

And even if she ain't blood I'll be the father I can

But the law says I couldn't unless I'm married to Beth

But we divorced 'cause she cheated she created this mess

I lost my family, and that shit drove me to drink

But if I drank enough liqour I controlled what I think

I started missing work I was too hungover to bring

Myself to leave the house now I'm broke and it stings

They finally fire me my anxiety's back

Because I can't pay the bills and I'm behind on my rent

Where will I live if I'm evicted? Man I'm trying to wrap

My head around the situation but I cry when I'm stressed

And I'm stressed now I'm stressed out I'm on the brink of flippin' out

I don't got a house, toiler or sink

What you expect a man to do when he was down on his knees

The bank tellin' me to pay them some ridiculous fee

But I don't have it fuck it you can take my estate

Shit I could sleep inside my car until my payment is straight

I did that for a couple weeks until I woke up in pain

And realized it's been a few days since I even ate

I pawned my car just to get a little cash

Hopin' that I could make it last

Until I'm back on my feet

But obviously that ain't gon' work

When I seen what they quoted me on what my car was worth

I ain't worth shit; worthless

Plus the bank is searchin'

For my assets to liquidate what's on my person

What's the purpose? God can you tell me

You put me on the streets and I did was try to help thee

And I hate you for it still I can't change it

So I just buckle down and pray that I can face it

I miss my wife and people seem to change quick

So who am I to say I wouldn't put her through the same shit