Pray for Me - Intellectual

Yeah

Life

Living with the best intentions in wrong the circumstance

I just pray I get it right

Ain't too many chances God gone give but I understand a nigga need a guide

Looking at my mama shedding tears ain't the plan

But a nigga gotta make something shake tonight

I don't see another option

Rap checks slow, nine to five ain't enough

Ain't a meal on the stove, got it loaded up

Living every day to stay alive, but they say you born to die

Either way I'm sick of struggling so I don't give a fuck

Shit ain't been right so I'm done with complaints

Ain't no more I can take

So I'm going in with no brakes

Lord can I make it alive from another mistake

Should I worry bout the fact I got a worry bout death

I been same dealing with same bullshit to point that I laugh like shit what's next

In too deep

Water to my neck

Still tryna grind even on my last breath

Cause going out the nothin something that I can't accept

On a suicide mission for the cause and effect

Ain't a pause or regret in a lifetime that I can afford

When I see the team down shots still going up

And I'm there pulling down all the boards

All I wanna do is ball

But the streets ain't a fair sport

My nigga took seven years in them courts

Gotta keep a club like Tiger on the course

Cause where I'm from "18 holes" means they showed some remorse

They praising the flaw and the real get ignored

I can't relate too much game I've absorbed

Niggas still sleep on they mama decor

And still talking gangsta when they hit record

These niggas ain't built like the words in they sentence

Type in all caps 'til a lower case pending

I live by the cold of the realest

A cold day in hell 'fore they take me back in or I'm snitching

Pray for me

Heater under my pillow

Paranoia keep breaking my sleep

All this hunger keep causing more pain

All these murders keep causing more grief

Niggas dying for clout

Rather film when you down, won't help you out

Got my head in the clouds

Searching for answers to cure all my doubts

It's bigger than us

It's out of my hands

That's why I'm praying to God

Oh heavenly Father

Keep my head above the water

It's your world but we your children

Your sons and your daughters

We struggling trying to get it together

But some of us ain't gon' see tomorrow

Two in the morning, my day started two days ago

Every morning it feels like I'm mourning

The pain it shows

My mind keep racing with no finish line or laps to go

I can't erase the hurt

The ink is dry, the pen is broke, my mind is filled with notes

I spazz on all my people that's close

I feel like change is close but still too far

With all these burdens that I carry daily

The weight never faze me

Never be given more than I can handle

My strength is amazing

Ask how I handle this pressure I smile and stay positive

And I'm drinking crazy

Living one day at a time

Keeping in mind these niggas don't fuck with me like they be claiming

Fighting depression the xannies too me where I needed until they detained me

Losing my dreams 'cause I'm sleep deprived with the stress and it's draining my soul

Going in circles am I spiraling out of control or filling the holes