[Intro]

Uh, ayy

[Chorus]

And this 'bout the fourth time this year I done thought about ending it all

But I'm scared to push forth on the trigger

In New York with my niggas

We don't Milly Rock, but I feel like the source of my dance is extorted by liquor

With hopes I could cover these pigeon toes

My dopamine levels is dipping low

The closeness to dreams in proximity never outweighs all the feelings I didn't show

My demons been throwing they C's up, stuck in the blues, my nigga

My peace been disrupted for weeks, I don't know what to do, my nigga

Feel like I'm letting down half of my team, I feel like I'm Kuzma, nigga

Sometimes I feel useless, nigga

[Verse 1]

Ausar has been telling me lately I need to just put all my fear aside, is it really essential?

I wear my whole faith on my sleeve just to show I got fear of God if you seen my credentials

Then you know that a nigga like me not for teary eyes

But this grown-ish I fight on the daily is Chloe and Halle and Yara Sharidi vibes

I'm like Kenya Barris

Knowing the fact that my pen won't fail me, I'ma sign on the dot so they pay me cash

Pray they don't hate me like Stacey Dash

Every player I played with said paper's amazing for building mâché to display my craft

Picasso, but locked on the style

An apostle whose passion could topple the masters, a god free to the walk 'cross the Nile, you dig?

I struggle with benching these demons above me, I know for a fact I'm not swole enough

You could tell by my ugly and how much she love me my shorty deserves more to hold her up

Origami look lovely, but baby don't trust me enough to think bitches won't fold me up

Moral compass is losing direction

Sorting conflicts with ruthless aggression

More despondent when using affection

And my honesty worse than these lies

It's like comedy service in session

Every time I say we gon' be fine

She convinced that our worst days need some first aid, but she scared to apply it

She more so prepared for dividing, yeah

[Chorus]

And this 'bout the fourth time this year I done thought about ending it all

But I'm scared to push forth on the trigger

In New York with my niggas

We don't Milly Rock, but I feel like the source of my dance is extorted by liquor

With hopes I could cover these pigeon toes

My dopamine levels is dipping low

The closeness to dreams in proximity never outweighs all the feelings I didn't show

My demons been throwing they C's up, stuck in the blues, my nigga

My peace been disrupted for weeks, I don't know what to do, my nigga

Feel like I'm letting down half of my team, I feel like I'm Kuzma, nigga

Sometimes I feel useless, nigga

[Verse 2]

Uh, D-Book the way the sun shine when they finally see a nigga glory, ayy

Skipping my story to see the result, it's a shame 'cause I tried to share it

They gon' say I'm like Cole, but imposter syndrome make me feel like Tobias Harris

They gon' say I birth gold, but that often brings lows when living like Midas parents

I don't feel moved no more, curb my enthusiasm

When I fake laugh, I don't feel amused no more

I work for the views I'm after, but that Drake shit ain't what I pursue no more

Tryna put Mizz in Seattle

Asia been down for the A

Nile want a fenced-in castle

Things feel different when you got a couple niggas on your backside

Praying that this ship don't capsize

Playing with this shit will attract flies

Playing like the Clips will just turn you Doc Rivs

Every nigga is convinced you the bad guy

Been there, done that, bad vibes

Still got demons from my past lives

Feeling like everything changes the minute you seize every hour inside the clock

I ain't been settling lately to win it, I need to be netting on every shot

Depression been meddling greatly to end it, believe me, I'm never gon' let it stop

Where I go

Ayy, and this 'bout the fourth time this year I done thought about ending it all

But I'm scared to push forth on the—