[Verse 1]

I got a part of me broken

I'm guarding myself from the scars I'm exposing

Harder to feel I'm at peace with my heart in the open

Harder to breathe through the sparks of weed

But it's help when I harbor commotion

As a Spartan I need to be hard as can be

But it hurts to discard my emotions (To discard my emotions)

Pressed for the bottle that caught the tears off me quietly

Fear of sobriety, years of the tyranny

Clear as a day with no thunder, here I am tryna be

The calm before the storm, I'm constantly at war

I stand for mе denying blame but nevеr learn to build

Understandably while hiding pain, I never learn to heal

With the phantom of my lies will haunt my brain until revealed

And until my bed is made, I'll spend these days with waves of guilt

From the pit of confinement I could see the spots of truth

By just digging through my dirt you'll see a heap of toxic roots

See the purity is gone and insecurity run loose

With every issue that arises it's get buried in excuse inside my soul

[Chorus]

I pray my body don't turn cold

Before I learn to face my problems

I pray someday I gain control

Take me as I am, I been flawed

Hold my hand, don't let me fall

I been scared for my whole life

Scared, scared for my whole life

Scared for my whole life

Scared for my whole life

Scared for my whole life

Scared, scared for my whole life

[Verse 2]

Scared of commitment

Scared that these women might destroy the inner wiring

Of our future in this shared existence

Scared of addiction

Scared that my usage and abuses in my plight

Could send me right back to my doomed position

(Scared of decisions)

Scared that the pressures that consumes me in the night

Gon' push this knife end my truth this instant

Scared of assistance

Scared that me asking you for help gon' show my weaknesses

While my pride gon' make me move against it

I wear this mask out daily, I keep my feelings silent

I scream to show my strength, I don't like being violent

I hate that fact I'm hardened, can't even get emotional

Don't try open up to me, I'm just gon' fucking ghost you

Don't say you proud of me, that's just gon' jam me up

If it start crying do that mean I'm still not man enough?

And all this time, my pain rejected all the years

Was just an effort to find greatness and acceptance amongst my peers

In my soul

[Chorus]

I pray my body don't turn cold

Before I learn to face my problems

I pray someday I gain control

Take me as I am, I been flawed

Hold my hand, don't let me fall

I been scared for my whole life

Scared, scared for my whole life

Scared for my whole life

Scared for my whole life

Scared for my whole life

Scared, scared for my whole life